Going Through It - Cryptic Wisdom

Somebody better come get me, cause I ain’t got a lot to lose

What I’ve been through, sort of distorted my views

I ain’t really got a clue, what I’ma do

Give me the help that I need, I try and keep it in the booth

But between me and you I feel the pressure of all of it

Telling me I’ve gotta use, what am I doing

Ain’t got a fam, ain’t got a home, ain’t got a plan

Ain’t got a single thing that I’ve been doing right

But I don’t really think you’d understand

Cause on the surface, everything’s perfect

Yeah, I’ve been making money, rubber bands

But I’ve been trying to be somebody other than me

And I don’t remember who I am

I don’t remember what it’s like to love

Cause when I felt it I was young

I just wrote Dominique a fucking email

What am I doing I’m dumb

I had a girl, we had a dream

But I was weak, now it is done

I found out my ex was having a baby, crazy

That one left me kinda bummed

Should’ve been mine, it should’ve been mine

Are you out your mind, boy

She ain’t thought about you in ten years

She’s settled down and doing fine

And I know I ain’t gotta remind you

What it would do to you when you would find

Another excuse to get in the noose and give her your time

I know that everything I’m going through has got a reason

When you’re going through it that’s all that you can believe in

You may not deserve it, no, but maybe it was needed

Gotta keep your head up if you really wanna beat it

I know that everything I’m going through has got a reason

When you’re going through it that’s all that you can believe in

You may not deserve it, no, but maybe it was needed

Gotta keep your head up if you really wanna beat it

I been living a lie, but bringing it by though

And I’m willing to die, for the rhythm that I know

Cause I don’t like change, and I won’t behave

I got nothing but destruction on my brain

And you might know me, or maybe not I don’t give a damn

I’m lonely, and I don’t know how to be a different man

I’m the one that made this so bad

Common sense, I been missing that

In between I need time for me

And it’s time for me to go and get you back

I feel for the kids the most

Cause they don’t really get to know

What’s going on between us both

All they see is we ain’t close

All this discussion in private

Suddenly I’m about to be a ghost

I don’t even know where to go

But tell them I love 'em when I hit the road

I love you and you’ll always be my best friend

Here’s to a new beginning, let the rest end

I thank you for your love and all your lessons

I will never be the same again

I’ve been feeling all good

Been feeling all right

I’m feeling all good until I’m not alright

Then it gets bad for me

Then when I’m tripping it gets bad for me

Bad for me (for me)