Bottled Up - Cryptic Wisdom

Usually I turn a cheek

Usually I let it go

But I feel this burning deep

And I fear I’m set to blow

So to hell with the courtesy

Never felt it affect me so

Been about ten years, had a good run

But I’m finna have an episode

Got too much going on

Like, court dates in a week, I’m stressed

Prosecutors wanna see me rest

In a cell, oh well, and I’m eating less

On top of it all, lost my friend

And the woman that I love is leaving next

Long as I got my rap and a bed

And the lab in the back, and I breathe I’m blessed

I guess

I ain’t never been one for the heart to heart

But I get a bit emotional when I’ve got a big show

And the god damn car won’t start

Never been as happy as when I get a track done

Back to back and I’m carving art

I don’t wanna ever love another like this

Cause the being away would be the hardest part

I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna be

I shut down and I just don’t speak

Letting y’all walk all over me

Fuck that, for the day I’m over, peace

I’m so cold, and I don’t release

Do my best to be oh so sweet

I don’t wanna be that dude

Guaranteed that I’m on one and won’t be beat

Come on

There’s not enough time in the day

To beat around the bush

Just say what you wanna say

Cause all I do is pray

Somebody’s gonna fuck with me today

I’ve been bottling this up

And I think I’m about to break

There’s not enough time in the day

To beat around the bush

Just say what you wanna say

Cause all I do is pray

Somebody’s gonna fuck with me today

I’ve been bottling this up

And I think I’m about to break

I’m way too young to be jaded

Looking for the faith anywhere I go

Is there anybody that can tell me what I’m bottling up

And when I’ma give into the pair I grow

On the outside, I could be a lamb

But I’ve got the potential to be a bear, I know

What am I doing to me and why am I doing it

Am I scared that they’re gonna see what dare I show

Do I really wanna bare my bones

Am I gonna let it all out

You don’t wanna fuck with me right now

I’m not well, in the head, you don’t want that bout

When I get enraged I’ma start to shout

That’ll be the day that’ll end all doubt

I’m a nice guy with a limit, better watch your mouth

And be mindful of what you spout

When I was a boy, I was mad

I don’t wanna go back

Cause if that was then, this is bad

Don’t know how to react

I was always used to the pen and pad

Picked up all of my slack

Now I’m like, one more problem away from erupting

And fuck it, we don’t want that

That’ll put me in jail again

Hell if I’ma be locked away in that cell

Cause I’ve got a lot to do and if I go get popped

You can bet that affects my sales

Uh, welcome to the life I live

You could probably tell

I don’t really know that much about myself

And I don’t get too much help

There’s not enough time in the day

To beat around the bush

Just say what you wanna say

Cause all I do is pray

Somebody’s gonna fuck with me today

I’ve been bottling this up

And I think I’m about to break

There’s not enough time in the day

To beat around the bush

Just say what you wanna say

Cause all I do is pray

Somebody’s gonna fuck with me today

I’ve been bottling this up

And I think I’m about to break