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These girls hop around like it’s double dutch

Wine in my cup

Sizing 'em up

Where is the love

Reaching for air

Suffocated by trust issues this shit isn’t fair

I played by the rules and got clipped on the air

I showed you I cared

I was really there

Helped you more than I thought I would dare

I was dealing with my shit but then I canceled it

Answered every phone call

You don’t know the half of it

Never told you 'cause I know your thoughts snowball

I tried to be a good guy but all I got was cut throat

I stopped everything

I stopped making beats and chasing dreams

So I could help you chase your dreams

Funny how that shit turned quick to a nightmare

Ex girl on my mind

Thousand yard stare

Out of the war but I smell blood in the air

PTSD close my eyes I see you there

Impaired

Stumblin' on my feet

I don’t normally get like this especially during the week

But I been holding onto words I know it’s hard to believe

You lost yourself awhile back and found yourself in me

Then I was your source of happiness

And that’s how we lose 'cause then

When I was hurt you were hurt but you were hurting me

Complicated shit that we waded through

Young kids in love feels like murder in the 3rd degree

Yeah, swear I wish I could give you more

Insecure beautiful girls hard to adore

I tried to give you everything from every single pore

But it was hard for me to open up

Like a locked door I was shut from the moment we kissed

I was already shut before the day that we made love at my crib

I’m sorry, I just been through it all before

Been watching my parents go through it since I was four

Yeah

And now I’m lonely in the aftermath

Sleep with random girls just so I can (a)void the heart attacks

Still can’t believe you gave me backlash after everything you said

What a mismatch

Yeah

But whatever I know it’s hard for you

I guess when people lie to themselves they lie to you too

Shit’s gonna be hard to undo

But fuck it

Yeah