If I Surrender - Citizen Soldier

If I surrender

Lately I've been feeling so ashamed

By these thoughts I'm hiding in my brain

'Cause I've been holding them down but they twist me violently

I'm hanging by a thread tonight

but this time I don't wanna be saved

So let me fall, let me break

Under everything unsaid

Just let me die 'cause I can't take

Living with what's in my head

If I surrender, surrender

To the monsters in me

If I surrender, surrender

To the monsters in me

Will it set me free?

What's the point of holding on like this?

When no one seems to care if I exist

There is no agony like being strong

when no one knows you're sick

So sick of hearing I should stay

when I know I would never be missed

So let me fall, let me break

Under everything unsaid

Just let me die 'cause I can't take

Living with what's in my head

If I surrender, surrender

To the monsters in me

If I surrender, surrender

To the monsters in me

If you could see under my skin

You'd realize why I hold it in

Why it's a fight I don't wanna win

Why it's a fight I don't wanna win

If you could see all my abuse

And spent a day inside my shoes

You'd realize why I just wanna lose

You'd realize why I just wanna lose

Will anyone believe the hell of being me

Before I decide to be the dying proof?

So let me fall, let me break

Under everything unsaid

Just let me die 'cause I can't take

Living with what's in my head

If I surrender, surrender

To the monsters in me

If I surrender, surrender

To the monsters in me

Will it set me free?