Mess - Chelsea Cutler

I’m a mess, I’ve been a mess for months, I know it’s real

And I’ve been doing anything I can and I’m out of feels

And I know that putting all this liquor in my body

Won’t exonerate me from the guilt that I’m seeing

No, there’s nothing in the world that’s gonna stop me

Still I wait for you and I know

It’s late and I wanna go home

But I’m scared of how quiet

It will be without you

I hate taking off my own clothes

Getting in my own bed

Spinning thoughts about you

It’s late and I’m waiting behind

For the drugs to kick in

And erase my heartbeat

I hate how it’s all in my head

Smoking new cigarette

Thinking you could still want me

I’m a mess, I’ve been a mess for months, I know it’s true

I look for validation from anybody that’s not you, yeah

And I know that putting all this liquor in my body

Won’t exonerate me from the guilt that I’m seeing

No, there’s nothing in the world that’s gonna stop me

Still I wait for you and I know

It’s late and I wanna go home

But I’m scared of how quiet

It will be without you

I hate taking off my own clothes

Getting in my own bed

Spinning thoughts about you

It’s late and I’m waiting behind

For the drugs to kick in

And erase my heartbeat

I hate how it’s all in my head

Smoking new cigarette

Thinking you could still want me

It’s late and I’m waiting behind

For the drugs to kick in

And erase my heartbeat

I hate how it’s all in my head

And I know I’m am mess

Thinking you could still want me