Deathbed - Chelsea Cutler

I apologize for what I said

But I still meant it

I know that I live in my head

U won’t let me forget it

I promised that I tried

But walls don’t break

And words don’t mean enough

I swear I never meant

To lose my grip on something that I love

I’ll be laying on my deathbed

And I’ll tell u that I fucked it up

Yeah I’ll be laying on my deathbed

'Cause I love u but it’s not enough

I’m praying something’s gonna give

Yeah I know I feel it

And the pendulum is gonna swing

And rotate the seasons

I promise that I’ll try

To be a person u deserve at all

Cause maybe if I change

You’ll let me in when I wanna come home

I’ll be laying on my deathbed

And I’ll tell u that I fucked it up

Yeah I’ll be laying on my deathbed

'Cause I love u but it’s not enough

I promised that I tried

But walls don’t break

And words don’t mean enough

I swear I never meant

To lose my grip on something that I love