Thoughts - Cassper Nyovest

I keep on pacing up and down the room

And I keep looking at this fuckin' rope

My mama text me sayin' «See you soon»

But will I make it?

I don’t know

I don’t wanna die but, I also don’t wanna hurt

Found a pot of gold but, still feel like I need to search, word!

Success ain’t everything that I assumed, cause I feel lonely in these crowded

rooms (Mmh)

Can’t even tell if it’s plastic or real

They love me but I feel inadequate still

I mean I try to stay focused and ignore it but the pressure will build

Will be ashamed if I don’t set up my kids

I mean I’m booming right now but, how long is my reign gon' last?

(Mmh?)

I feel like I’m one wrong step away from becoming the same old Cass (Mmh)

I don’t wanna go back

Wanna move forward but I don’t have all the energy

Especially when friends is busy siding with enemies

Thought you knew me better than all these made up analogies

How could I be happy when everybody is mad at me?

You could tell I’m lonely by all these memes in my gallery

Busy burning bridges when I should be burning calories

Wishin' that we all came with rechargable batteries

Wanna end it all but gotta think of my family

(Fuck!)

Now I’m forced to smile with niggas like Scoop (Mmh, mmh)

Who don’t love me like they say that they do (Mmh, mmh)

I can see it in the way that they move (Mmh, mmh)

Niggas do you false and say they livin' they truth

Who got receipts for what a prayer do?

(Uh)

You let me fall, that let me know that I’m unbreakable (Uh)

Your sink full, that let me know how that ate at you (Uh)

Come see my plate and all the shit they make me cater to (Uh)

It ain’t no space for you cause I done been confined to it (Uh)

Ain’t nothing perfect like my vessel if I fine-tune it (Uh)

Man I been thirsty than a bitch, been tryna find fluid (Uh)

I got a waterfall to find out that it’s diluted (Uh)

I see the sun inside my son so I been, super shaded but illuminated (Uh)

Can’t do this self so I went super Saiyan (Uh)

My Neo-Soul can make it through the Matrix (Woah-woah)

Clear through my basement I been fumigated

This shit got me buggin' uh

I’m still the slave, I got a noose inside my stomach uh

My free shackles, turn the jewellery for the function uh

My self destruction look like something-something-something uh

And I fear God but tell the devil we could run it uh

Your inner beauty never paid you, truth is ugly huh?

I’m so confused I see the darkness when the sun is out

Yo tell the truth, when we meet you just see money huh?

It’s been a minute since I fell in love

Been soul searchin', I been meaning to tell

Was unavailable, they needed my help

See I convinced the whole damn world to believe in me bruh

When I don’t even believe in myself

I’m not as honest as you think I am, I’m just as filtered as your Instagram

I mean I’m really mean just with a bit of trickery

I don’t trust a soul, I be like Mr. Bean (Shhh!)

My spirit the reason people look up, sort of like Listerine

Scratch beneath the surface

No matter how I word it

Could never tell the truth to my fans, they think I’m perfect

I know I’m real, and I know I’m fake

Don’t know my fate, but I know my faith

Tryna control my pace

Believe in God, and the pearly gates

So if I die, I hope my soul you take

I know that heaven is a stretch but I’m hoping that you hold my place

I know I’ll make it, though I made mistakes

Father protect me when I walk through the shadows of the valley of death

With no fear of the darkness though I’m hearing the threats

When I walk through the shadows of the valley of death

With no fear of the darkness, say that shit with my chest