How To Disappear - Casey

It’s a slow ride, slipping out of focus\nA steady decline, every day’s the same\nIt aches until you tell yourself you can’t feel it anymore\nBut it makes your shadow heavy as you drag it on the floor\nAnd you’re happy til you’re not, then you’re unsure if you ever were\nYou’re looking tired lately, is it getting hard to hold yourself together?\nThe vespertine reluctance to stay awake\nAnd engage with anything you’d say\nAre you keeping count of how often I dissociate\nWhen asked «Is everything okay?»?\nWhen all I wanna know is how to disappear\nWithout leaving you to worry about me\nIt hurts to say, but I’m getting tired of\nOf running away from the same pain\nFrom the same pain\nSorry if I’ve been avoiding the question\nSorry if I’ve been avoiding the question\nWhat if you woke up to an empty bed and a note that said\n«Is it disregard or discontent, that lures a sparrow to its end?»\nSharp despair laid bare in the sunlight golden\nFractured glass on an afternoon of grief unspoken\nLately I haven’t been myself at all\nSorry if I’ve been avoiding the question, I haven’t been myself at all\nSorry if I’ve been avoiding the question, I haven’t been myself at all\nWhen all I wanna know is how to disappear\nWithout leaving you to worry about me\nIt hurts to say, but I’m getting tired of\nOf running away from the same pain\nFrom the same pain\nIs everything okay? (Is everything okay? Everything okay?)\nIs everything okay? (Is everything okay? Everything okay?)\nIs everything okay? (Is everything okay? Everything okay?)\nIs everything okay? (Is everything okay? Everything okay?)\nSorry if I’ve been avoiding the question\nSorry if I’ve been avoiding the question\nWhen all I wanna know is how to disappear\nIt’s all I wanna know\nWhen all I wanna know is how to disappear\nIt’s all I wanna know