Manaliyim - Cankan

Ates kop yüregimden

buruk buruk ben oldum

koptu kalbim yerinden

saga sola savruldum

uçurum gelip buldu beni sürüklendim hep durdum

bir adim gitmez geri canimdan oldum

neler oldu bak neler kestiler yollarimi

sonu gelmeyen darbeler kirdilar umutlarimi

simdi cikmaz yoldayim hem darda hem zodayim hesabi bitmeyen sahneler

can aldi birer birer

yandim yandim bicaga dayandim canimi aldin hazirmiyim

boynumu büktün adimi yaktin kalbimi vurdun dayanirmiyim

sirtimi döndüm kursun dünya geri dönüp bakarmiyim

kaç kez vurdu kaç kez öldü yanar yaram sararmiyim

Öyle yorgun durgunum ki sussam bile manaliyim

ondan baskasi anlamaz beni dönmem artik kararliyim

kapina geldim ya Ya Rabbi icim yangin yaraliyim

sen affetmessen beni bilmem buna dayanirmiyim…

canimi yaktilar kullanip köseye attilar kapattilar isiklarimi yalnizliga idam

ettiler beni

dayanir mi küçük kalbim buna

kaldirir mi bunlara alisirmi korkulara savasirmi sen olmayinca

hani insan bir an bütün umutlarini kaybedip bir köseye çaresizce yumulur

kalbine igneler batar ya bedeni buruk buruk olur karanliklara kapilip deli

rüzgarlara kendini birakir saliverir atar ya

ates olur etrafi sagi solu görmez icinden bir feryat ALLAH diyip yüregini yakar

ya

bende öyle savrulmus sarsilmis bir halde geldim sana Ya Rabbi çikmaz yol

bilmiyorum senden baska görmüyorum geri çevirip öldürme beni eskilere döndürme

beni keske Allahim yolunda bir toprak olsam Insanlar üstüme basarak sana gelse

ne görülsem nede anilsam ne bilinsem nede sorulsam sadece senin yolunda

kaybolsam pismanim Ya Rabbi hemde coook

yandim yandim bicaga dayandim canimi aldin hazirmiyim

boynumu büktün adimi yaktin kalbimi vurdun dayanirmiyim

sirtimi döndüm kursun dünya

geri dönüp bakarmiyim kaç kez vurdu kaç kez öldü yanar yaram sayarmiyim

Öyle yorgun durgunum ki sussam bile manaliyim ondan baskasi anlamaz beni dönmem

artik kararliyim kapina geldim ya Ya Rabbi icim yangin yaraliyim sen

affetmessen beni bilmem buna dayanirmiyim…

Take fire from my heart

I've been bad

my heart broke

I've been thrown left and right

The abyss came and found me I drifted I always stopped

I don't take a step back, I'm back

what happened look what they cut my way

endless blows broke my hopes

Now I'm on the way

took life one by one

I burned, I burned, I stood on the knife, you took my life, am I ready?

You broke my neck, you burned my name, you hit my heart, can I hold on

I turned my back, let the world go back and see

How many times did he hit me? How many times did he die?

I'm so tired that even if I keep quiet, I'm meaningful

no one but him will understand me, now I'm determined to return

I came to your door

If you don't forgive me, I don't know if I can stand it...

They hurt me, they used me, they threw me in the corner, they turned off my lights, they executed me alone

they made me

can my little heart bear it

Will he remove it, will he get used to them, will he fight the fears without you?

You know when a person loses all hope for a moment and falls helplessly in a corner.

Needles pierce his heart, his body becomes achy

he surrenders himself to the winds

there will be fire, as soon as he can't see the right and left, a cry inside him says GOD and burns his heart

either

I came to you in such a swayed and shaken state, O Lord, the dead end

I don't know I don't see you but you don't kill me don't turn me back

I wish I was a land in the way of Allah If people came to you by stepping on me

Whether I'm seen or remembered or known or asked, only on your way

I regret if I get lost Ya Rabbi

I burned, I burned, I stood on the knife, you took my life, am I ready?

You broke my neck, you burned my name, you hit my heart, can I hold on

I turned my back, let the world

can i go back and see how many times he hit me how many times he died can i count my wounds

I am so tired that even if I keep quiet, I am meaningful, no one but him will understand me, I will not return

I'm determined now, I've come to your door

If you don't forgive me, I don't know if I can stand it...