Expect Nothing - Cabaret Voltaire

i keep losing sleep on couches and floors

because I hate laying in this bed

wishing for so much more

than the growing pain that formed in my chest and my head

but expected nothing less

than a few reassuring words

and the sound of bitter resentment in your voice

knowing I couldn’t do anything more for us because it was always your choice.

It was always your choice

and this is the second time

you came into my life

wanting to build something from the ground up after knocking down my walls

and in an expected turn of events

you left me out in the open

as if i didn’t matter to you at all.

And now I just want to feel the air in my lungs again

and the heart beating in my chest

but that was taken the moment

you drove back down south

to your home near the beach with

a view almost as beautiful as you.

And in the 3 seconds between

you letting go of that last kiss

and us saying our goodbyes

I was ready to believe it would be the last time I’d ever held you.

And I was right.

And I heard you felt so sorry

but you never told me specifically

and all I could use now is an apology

but you’re too busy lost in his sheets

and what was so wrong with me that I couldn’t get you to stay

you filled me with joy

and I cherished that every day

at least I was able to tell you goodbye this time

remember when you promised me that there would never be a last time?

well where are you now cause I need you here by my side

I guess everything I wanted to believe so terribly bad was just a lie

and everything thing you said

that used to make me feel alive

just makes me feel dead

I just want to see one of us happy

I know youre happier than me