Never Going Back - Brothers

I can’t take this any longer

They say what kills you makes you stronger

Flicking through these photos

Reminiscing them days when we were younger

Man, things were so different

Had Mama always cooking in the kitchen

Single mother raising three boys

I swear I don’t know how you did it

But God as my witness, until I die

I made a promise, I’ma make it

For all them days when you picked me up from the station

Man, only God knows you were patient

I’ll never forget them nights when you used to cry

I always wanted to ask you why

Was it 'cause Dad left us with no goodbye?

Or was it the pain

Falling off of my little brother’s eyes?

Or was it the family

With all their bullshit and their lies?

Or was it my auntie?

Everything changed that day she died

She left two little beautiful girls behind

The only time I see is when I look in their eyes

It’s crazy, you were my best friend

The only one that kept the family together

Now everything is a mess, my life’s like a puzzle

The pieces will take me forever

To put 'em together, that’s why I don’t bother

But I don’t want to live with regret

When I see my mum stressed, it gets me depressed

I cannot enjoy my success

Swear I can’t do this no more

It tore me apart when they put a battery in my mother’s heart

Doctor said she wouldn’t make it

This the end of my verse

Wish I can go back to the start

But I know it will hurt

I know it will hurt

Look, Mama, I’m sorry

For all the pain that you’ve been through

I’ma buy you a house with that big view

'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you

Father, I’m sorry

You weren’t there for me when I needed you

I ain’t never gonna stop, no way

I’m never going back to them days

I grew up alone

That’s why I always did shit on my own

I never asked nobody for no favours

Always moved houses

So I never had a place to call home

Never going back to them days

Never going back to them days, no way

Look, Mama, I’m sorry

For all the pain that you’ve been through

I’ma buy you a house with that big view

'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you

Father, I’m sorry

You weren’t there for me when I needed you

I ain’t never gonna stop, no way

I’m never going back to them days

2018, January 24

Let me take you back to the moment

Where my life was almost cut short

I was driving, 'bout to turn right

I looked, there was no car in sight

All of a sudden

Bright lights when I opened my eyes

I’m sitting there praying

Will I ever get the chance to see my family again?

Was it even worth it?

All the drama between me and my ex

Was it worth blaming myself all of them years

When my dad walked out and left?

Fuck him, I never needed him

But who I am kidding?

Grew up feeling alone

That’s why I always did shit on my own

I never asked nobody for no favours

Always moved houses

So I never had a place to call home

Shit got worse when my grandfather died

Didn’t even get the chance to say bye

But I know deep down, he’s in a better place

So, Lord, tell me why

Rest in peace to my ones up there

Tell me why do the good die young

Bow to my knees, I’ma cite this prayer

But I know the devil tryna hold my tongue

I was taught by my mum

She said the fame don’t change you

It changes the people around you

She a OG like that, MVP like that

She only see the best in me like that

Fuck

As I take a couple more breaths

My body’s in shock, there’s pain on my chest

Knife in the back’s from the ones that left

When I’m laid in my coffin to rest

Just know I was blessed

Just know I was blessed

Look, Mama, I’m sorry

For all the pain that you’ve been through

I’ma buy you a house with that big view

'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you

Father, I’m sorry

You weren’t there for me when I needed you

I ain’t never gonna stop, no way

I’m never going back to them days

Sebz (Yeah?)

Remember back in the day

I used to watch you lock yourself in that room

Because of the shit they say

Izzy, remember what I told you

No such thing as a friend

Only friend is your pad and the pen

I’m the one you can always depend, I’m your brother

Fuck them all right to the end

Tell me why never loved us

Izzy, relax

Nah, bro, look how they all switched up

Circle got smaller the bigger we got

This took us ten years, they say it was luck

They say that we fake

They say it with hate

The type to take anyone’s food off their plate

You know what, you’re right, they think it’s a game

But this is our life, we don’t care about fame

Gotta stack up the cash then leave

No future for a kid in these streets

Little bro, have faith and always be grateful

Sebz, you were always there for me

And for that, my brother, I thank you

Don’t thank me

You taught me just as much as I taught you

But you could have died in the car that day

Then I swear I don’t know what I would do

'Cause I lost too many people I love

Lookin' around, it isn’t the same

Lord, forgive me, but this is the truth

So many times I just wanna give up

I feel like it’s never enough

I just wanna give up

I just wanna give up

Look, Mama, I’m sorry

For all the pain that you’ve been through

I’ma buy you a house with that big view

'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you

Father, I’m sorry

You weren’t there for me when I needed you

I ain’t never gonna stop, no way

I’m never going back to them days

I grew up alone

That’s why I always did shit on my own

I never asked nobody for no favours

Always moved houses

So I never had a place to call home

Never going back to them days

Never going back to them days, no way

Look, Mama, I’m sorry

For all the pain that you’ve been through

I’ma buy you a house with that big view

'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you

Father, I’m sorry

You weren’t there for me when I needed you

I ain’t never gonna stop, no way

I’m never going back to them days