Bad Thoughts - Belated

I’ve been sleeping in most days

On the same bed where we used to lay

And never will again

It’s so strange how fast things change

My blue eyes now project in grey

When I open the curtains

Now I’m trying in trying times

To keep my pulse a beat inside

Despite my discontentment

These bad thoughts won’t go away

I haven’t left the house in days

I checked your feed six times today, I

I can’t wait to fade away

You’ve been on my mind all day

And that’s not something I wanna say

But that’s the way it goes, ain’t it bab, I

I can’t wait to fade away

The city’s no good for me but it keeps you away

Latly it’s cold and isolating, like the way that you left me

And when I start to think I can get back on my feet

The memories come flooding back and I’m lost out at sea

There’s a death wish in the district

And I’m both sender and recipient

I’ll sit by and bide my time til it’s granted

‘Cause if I’m not hopeless, I’m as close as it gets

So don’t tell me it gets easier, I won’t hold my breath

These bad thoughts won’t go away

I haven’t left the house in days

I checked your feed six times today, I

I can’t wait to fade away

You’ve been on my mind all day

And that’s not something I wanna say

But that’s the way it goes, ain’t it babe, I

I can’t wait to fade away

These bad thoughts won’t go away

I haven’t left the house in days

I checked your feed six times today, I

I can’t wait to fade away

You’ve been on my mind all day

And that’s not something I wanna say

But that’s the way it goes, ain’t it babe, I

I can’t wait to fade away

Yeah, that’s ok