Felo de Se - Bedhead

I left thinking that I would be back

But I never did return

If you would forgive me I’d forgive myself

But forgiveness never has these terms

The sky was as dark as the thoughts I was thinking

It was ignored by the moon

If you would believe me I’d believe myself

But believing never comes this soon

The streets made a sound only my ears could hear

I was alone with the rats and raccoons

And your memory keeping me alive

As the clouds moved away from the moon

Then silence it hit me is a way to speak clearly

A way to never say what you don’t mean

But silence is useless in cases of torture

It just says God won’t intervene

And this night like others is a sign for the way

That the gray air speaks for the dead

The air is as vague as the thoughts I have now

That these memories are just in your head

So I kept walking through the clouds that were lifting

To reveal what I’d thought

There was more fog behind the mist that seemed was the only

Thing keeping me from what I sought

I turned around to walk back to the place

I had left thinking I would find

Answers to the questions that I shouldn’t ask

But the questions can’t find a way to leave me behind