heirloom - AYM

I guess i didn’t have what it takes

To make you wanna hold on forever

I guess i don’t know what it takes

To make you wanna hold on forever

Patience, a word that gets on my nerves

When it’s all i observe

Only to see it spurned

I wait till next sun but that’s no fun

When the next sun

Is setting in on when i’m done

Next days are so bright for you

All i could do is speak my truth

And see if it glued for you

But what can elmer’s do?

When maybe i’m

Looking more like elmer fudd

And you’re buggs bunny

I throw all my attempts in the gutter

While you sit back and just find it funny

But my carrot is heirloom

And i see how it consumes you

Gobbling in that vitamin C

Gives that vision boosts

Then the transfers happened

I gave it away

Only to watch your words turn

From everything that you’d say

So confusing but i get it

With a lot on your plate

And the veggies you just ate

No room for me in your fate, but wait…

Nah, nevermind, go ahead

Lessons to be learned and better off with me

Just a thought in your head

Patience, a word that keeps me driven

Moving forward toward what i want

Regardless of all i’ve given

Half my heart left, won’t digress ‘till i

Feel fulfillment, inside of my chest, but i

Can’t really see what’s in front of me

Because it’s so skewed with the energy

Busyness around is an enemy

Yo i need peace and serenity

And thought in you i’d befriended thee

But then i did some remembering

I’m the only one who can let it be

Ain’t no controlling my synergy

It’s the only way out, is not losing self in doubt

I can’t possibly surmount what i

Can’t even count and that

Includes the amount

Of the time i’d spent hoping that

You’d bring me out (yeah)

Almost three decades

Still learning lessons, still apprehensive

Still wondering if its worth it, worth what?

Worth it, to give it all

When it all seems dumb luck

No other choice to me

This is who i be

Cuz even when you leave

I don’t need the eulogy