Today - Austin Collins

Today I tried to kill you but it was only in my head

His words have betrayed you so I kill myself instead

Dear soul I lied to you I was only playing games

But you did well to take the beatings that I gave

Wake up crying every mornings the same

Choke back the tears and play the waiting game

Talk to your TV like its your best friend

Go to bed so you can do it all over again

Sitting on your hands it takes booze to make you move

When help is only halfway from the things you shouldn’t do

Today I tried to kill you but it was only in my mind

Pills are so expensive so I kill myself this time

It’s the fallout that you fear

So afraid you’ll disappear

How long, how long have I been lied to again

I can feel the shame of shadows in your gaze

But I’m not wrong if you are Don’t wanna waste your time

Today I tried to kill you but it was only in my mind