Torn Between - As I Lay Dying

Pulled both ways, but still suspended

The worst of each, reduced and blended

Still suspended, suspended

I thought I was stuck between two worlds

Because I was not willing to let go

Recklessly pulled both ways

But somehow still suspended

The worst of each, reduced and blended

But as life unfolded, I realized

The momentum to drift from side to side

Came from within, came from inside

I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I’ll trade them in for one

Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on?

One heart turned black, the other blue and bruised

Arms breaking, arms breaking from the dreams

Dreams shattered, the dreams that I can’t reach

There has to be, there has to be a choice I have not seen

I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I’ll trade them in for one

Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on?

I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I’ll trade them in for one

One darkened over time burning away the shame

Erasing hidden insights I did not want to be seen

The other was beaten from being exposed

So it hurt less to never hold it close

I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I’ll trade them in for one

Broken and exposed, collapsing, so why would I hold on?

I feel torn between two hearts dying, but I’ll trade them in for one

So why would I hold on?

I’ll trade them in for one

Neither heart had power to fill my veins

Or be the source of who I want to be

Pulled both ways, but still suspended