Kajakas - Arop

Teadsin ärgates, et midagi on viltu, sest

Tühi tunne minu südames on pilkudes

Üksi nagu vesi, kraanikaussi tilkudes

Mänguelevant ja padi minu pihkudes

Ma ei mõista miks nad kaasa mulle tunnevad

Männimetsa kirjakivid kaovad lumme nad…

Ja selle uuele ma kunagi ei meeldind!

Kui meid oli mitu uskusin, et mitte keegi

Ei vaja mind.

Tulin koju alles peale koitu

Arvasin, et Sul nii kergem kolmelegi leida toitu

Sind ei hoitud, nii nagu naist peaks —

Nad ei elanud kui mehed, ainult laisk teaks!

Su isa lihtsalt tõstis meid tänavale

Tal oli raha vaja tean, oli hädavale

Peale isa surma arvasin, et olen peremees

A Papa polnud Suur kuigi süda tema kere sees oli!

Näe ema, ma lähen ema!

Sinu rüselus ja valu, pojast tähe teevad!

Sa hoiatasid ja ma tean, et Nad lähenevad!

Siin pole ühtki sellist pead, kes mul pähe teevad!

Pisarad on kuivad, maskid on tuimad aga

Nagu kajakas on meretuules vaba.

A nad

Valavad õli tulle, kuid ma mõtlen Sulle

Ja ma tean, et pole valu, mis nad teeks mulle…

Magasime viiekesi põrandal

Ainus turvaline tunne ema õla all

Mu kangelane on nüüd väikelinna võla all

Vajan plaani, kuidas päästa pere sellest põlast!

Jätsin jõuka akna lahti, et öösiti seal ennast pesta —

Üksi tühjas kaarhallis, soovin

Et see hetk võiks kesta kauem…

Mu allakäik võiks olla veidi laugem

Kuid ema lubas, mulle, et mu tuul ei ole kaugel

Ja ma usun!

Näe ema, ma lähen ema!

Sinu rüselus ja valu, pojast tähe teevad!

Sa hoiatasid ja ma tean, et Nad lähenevad!

Siin pole ühtki sellist pead, kes mul pähe teevad!

Pisarad on kuivad, maskid on tuimad aga

Nagu kajakas on meretuules vaba.

A nad

Valavad õli tulle, kuid ma mõtlen Sulle

Ja ma tean, et pole valu, mis nad teeks mulle…

Näe ema, ma lähen ema!

Sinu rüselus ja valu, pojast tähe teevad!

Sa hoiatasid ja ma tean, et Nad lähenevad!

Siin pole ühtki sellist pead, kes mul pähe teevad!

Pisarad on kuivad, maskid on tuimad aga

Nagu kajakas on meretuules vaba.

A nad

Valavad õli tulle, kuid ma mõtlen Sulle

Ja ma tean, et pole valu, mis nad teeks mulle…

Näe ema, ma lähen ema!

Sinu rüselus ja valu, pojast tähe teevad!

Sa hoiatasid ja ma tean, et Nad lähenevad!

Siin pole ühtki sellist pead, kes mul pähe teevad!

Pisarad on kuivad, maskid on tuimad aga

Nagu kajakas on meretuules vaba.

A nad

Valavad õli tulle, kuid ma mõtlen Sulle

Ja ma tean, et pole valu, mis nad teeks mulle…

I knew something was wrong when I woke up because

The empty feeling in my heart is in my eyes

Alone like water, dripping into the sink

A toy elephant and a pillow in my hands

I don't understand why they sympathize with me

The writing stones of the pine forest disappear in the snow, they...

And I never liked the new one!

When there were several of us, I believed that no one

Don't need me.

I didn't come home until after dawn

I thought it would be easier for you to find food for the three of you

You were not kept as a woman should be—

They didn't live like men, only a lazy person would know!

Your father just picked us up on the street

He needed money, I know, he was desperate

After my father died, I thought I was the master

A Papa was not Big even though his heart was inside his body!

Look mom, I'm going mom!

Your struggle and pain make a star out of your son!

You warned and I know They are coming!

There are no such heads here that make my head!

Tears are dry, but masks are dull

Like a seagull is free in the sea breeze.

And they

They add fuel to the fire, but I'm thinking of you

And I know there's no pain they'll do to me...

The five of us slept on the floor

The only safe feeling under my mother's shoulder

My hero is now in small town debt

I need a plan to save my family from this misery!

I left the rich window open to wash myself there at night —

Alone in an empty arcade, I wish

That this moment could last longer…

My descent could be a little smoother

But mother promised me that my wind was not far away

And I believe!

Look mom, I'm going mom!

Your struggle and pain make a star out of your son!

You warned and I know They are coming!

There are no such heads here that make my head!

Tears are dry, but masks are dull

Like a seagull is free in the sea breeze.

And they

They add fuel to the fire, but I'm thinking of you

And I know there's no pain they'll do to me...

Look mom, I'm going mom!

Your struggle and pain make a star out of your son!

You warned and I know They are coming!

There are no such heads here that make my head!

Tears are dry, but masks are dull

Like a seagull is free in the sea breeze.

And they

They add fuel to the fire, but I'm thinking of you

And I know there's no pain they'll do to me...

Look mom, I'm going mom!

Your struggle and pain make a star out of your son!

You warned and I know They are coming!

There are no such heads here that make my head!

Tears are dry, but masks are dull

Like a seagull is free in the sea breeze.

And they

They add fuel to the fire, but I'm thinking of you

And I know there's no pain they'll do to me...