Obtain Bearing - Apex Zero

I wonder down my journey’s path

Living a split existence

My body goes through life’s routines

My Spirit views this world from distance

Each connected by my mind

Weighed down by heavy thoughts and grief

Formed from what my body’s lived

And all the pain my spirit’s seen

Upon this Earth where people kill and die for what they think is right

Walking through darkness

We fight over the beams of light

All flowing from the same source

We all harbour the same thoughts

Tryna' make something of life before it’s run it’s course

I fight to find myself and my direction

Search for God amidst deception

So I can voice my praise and questions

Through a clear and crisp connection

Filter a drink that’s pure from muddy water

Striving to build a world that’s safe to house my sons and my daughters

Rid of the need for guns and slaughter

But it feels like that is what we’ll need

To rid the Earth of those maintaining this world order

Where children starve and are subject to rape and torture

And chemical bombs ensure the unborn are spawned deformed

Baffles my mind to think how anyone can let this be

As long as those who do exist a change must start from you and me

Sprout and grow from our hands

Or our children’s lives will be the cost

We know what must be done

But we’re at a loss because we’re lost

Walking in wilderness

Searching for answers that we don’t find

It’s like having the skill to write the illest rhyme

But just can’t put down the first line… the first line

It’s ‘cos it’s so immense

The scale of the task

The fight’s been going on for centuries

And with every generation it restarts

We take stabs in the dark

At what is truth

At why we’re here

At what is justice

At what is freedom

At what we should trust or fear

There’s so many opinions

Never consensus

Just devastation

We lead each other blind in circles

To death or damnation

We live confused inside a world of warring opposites

Greed moulds the mind so few will see what real profit is

We stare into an endless void

So our fear is warranted

From oblivion, to birth, to decay until apocalypse

We live the same cycle as our universe just scaled down

I crack a broken smile

Tryna' pave over this stale frown

Welded to my brain

Contemplating what’s become us

Wonder how anyone makes it through this life without taking another’s

Questioning…

What is freedom?

What is truth?

What is existence?

What is justice

I wonder what death will produce?

Hoping my final sunset brings a neo-genesis

A union with my Creator and all that has ever lived

Hoping my errors lift long enough

To help me see this once I’m dispersed

But our images of Heaven’s what we need to try create on Earth

A world without the suffering

That’s caused by walking selfish steps

So that our unborn needn’t fear their births the way we fear our deaths

Sometimes it’s hard

Constantly running through these thoughts

And longing for the world I wanna see

Sometimes my mind aches

It can feel like my universe is tearing

But the battle goes on

I fight to obtain my bearing

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