Dear Father - And Hell Followed With

Dear father

It’s been nine years

And I still see the hurt

In your eyes

Dear father

I never understood

What it meant

To have to say goodbye

From birth to adolescence

From adolescence to now

You taught me to be a man

But now I don’t know how

I couldn’t see

The forest for the trees

Never thought I’d see such sorrow

Back then I thought it’d go tomorrow

I remember the moment that you found

That his fire was burning out

I remember the moment

That he was gone, gone forever

I watched a man as tall as mountains

Crumble apart

I watched a man as strong as lions

Lose all control

There’s only ghosts in the winter

There’s only floods when it rains

We lament in memory

Of love, life, and his history

There’s only pain in my heart

There’s only regret

That I did not do my part

In knowing the man that molded you

The man who gave you a life so beautiful

I don’t believe in heaven or hell

But I hope he’s with his family now

I don’t believe in angels or god

But I hope he’s with your holy one

How can you be my savior without your savior?