18 Years and Counting - Amygdala

Hope for better days

Search for more lies

To make em think im okay

I don’t want to be a burden to you my love

And i don’t think the last words in my head before i sleep should be

I want to die

So when will i ever heal if the memories will never go away

My heart is always dropping

My legs are always trembling

And i feel sick

Sick to my stomach that this is happening to me

But i can’t stop wondering

Did i let this happen

And what does healing look like to you

It’s just different for me

It’s gonna take time

It’s already been 18 years

18 fucking years and i’m still not fucking okay

18 years and counting