Haven't Learned a Thing - Amy Speace

I have failed and I have fallen, cried till I was bawling

Been down so low my face was on the tiles

Where the cold against my lips, hollow like your kiss

Was empty as a North Dakota mile

I tried leaving without losing but the hardest part was choosing

Which direction I would run when I was free

And the only thing I’ve learned is that I haven’t learned a thing

I’ve drank one too many glasses, I’ve been bruised and I’ve been battered

By mistakes I never bothered to avoid

And friends who tried to offer advice I never followed

Grew tired of watching all that I’d destroyed

So I faked my best foot forward, while sneaking backwards toward

The center where the truth wouldn’t sting

And the only thing I’ve learned is that I haven’t learned a thing

We live we yearn we flame we burn we cry

We crawl we run we reach to touch the sky

And though our wings are made of wax

We try to fly too close to the light

Trying to get it right

You stood there like a stoic and I felt so claustrophobic

Wishing you’d give me a reason not to leave

Your silence closed in tighter and I felt like an outsider

In the home that was my haven all those years

But I knew that I was certain, like the dropping of a curtain

When I saw you’d taken off that ring

Guess the only thing I’ve learned is that I haven’t learned a thing

I have failed and I have fallen, cried till I was crawling

Been running for so long that I believed

That the thin ice where I landed was steadier than where I’d been

And now I’m not sure what’s in front of me

But in the falling and the flying and the living and the dying

Is how we carve our names inside this dream

The only thing I’ve learned is that I haven’t learned a thing

Maybe the only thing to learn is that you never learn a thing