Now - Allison Crowe

As I walk this hall alone I wonder

Exactly why it is I’m leaving

When there’s nothing there for me to return to

Other than blind faith

With a lack of believing

And not to say that I have nothing

I have everything and I am grateful

But my head is trying to tell me something

In this state of mind I feel so hateful

And I don’t understand

And I’m not going to try to because

Now that I’ve seen it

I couldn’t walk away no

Even if I wanted to, yes

Now that I’ve seen it

Even though I’m leaving now

Every bit of me is still there

Well I am filled with a quiet resolution

And questions posed without solution

And in my realm of indecision

Finally I feel as though I can see something

And though this beacons ever flashing

Ii can’t revisit without rehashing

When I’m stuck in where I created fear

I can not fix myself from here

And I’m starting to understand

At least in this state I believe something because

Now that I’ve seen it

I couldn’t walk away no

Even if I wanted to, yes

Now that I’ve seen it

Even though I’m leaving now

Every bit of me is still there

The amount of times

I’ve seen the edge

Of my own head

Is unrelenting

The floor falls out

And I am left with

Thoughts that move

Without consenting

When all I want is peace

And all I want to believe in

Is knowing without seeing

And wanting without fear

Now that I’ve seen it

I couldn’t walk away no

Even if I wanted to, yes

Now that I’ve seen it

Even though I’m leaving now

Every bit of me is still there