Effortless - Allison Crowe

I’m trying not to try so hard,

Makes me wonder if it’s really effortless,

Or if I’m fooling myself?

'Cause if I have to put so much of me Into trying not to care,

Where am I then?

I’m lying.

And do you see the way I walk away?

I never really know what I should say,

So it comes out wrong,

If it comes out at all.

So I straighten myself out,

I bring me back down,

«Don't be ridiculous,

You are so wrong.»

But then I’m drifting,

On a wave of thought.

I get lost in the tides,

And I can barely recognize myself.

I don’t mind,

'Cause do you see the way I walk away?

I never really know what I should say,

So it comes out wrong,

If it comes out at all.

So I try to act the way I would

If I was someone that wasn’t me.

But you wipe that away, don’t you?

And I am falling down,

I am tripping on words,

I am out of my mind.

You know, this is not like me.

I’m not usually happy, I swear.

And do you see the way I walk away?

I never really know what I should say

So it comes out wrong.

And I turn my back

And I don’t look back.

I am unafraid…

…but really I’m just kidding.

I’m terrified,

And I think I like it.

And I don’t care if I look ridiculous,

Trying to be effortless