Mostly I Feel Nothing - Alexander Biggs

I feel like I’m in a movie

Walking out into the rain

In my exit from your bedroom

Stealing more than I can take

I feel cornered when I hide every sad muscle in my face

Trick is knowing when to shut your mouth

I feel shameful when I kiss you

I feel low and I feel high

I feel heavy, like I’m drowning

When I wake up in the night

I feel like I used to know you

And now I don’t at all

Still I let this stranger in my house

Mostly I feel nothing

When I’m crawling into bed

When I’m curled up right against you

With your hands combing my hair

Mostly I have disappeared

Receded to my head

As you cradle me so gently

Everpresent, ever there

And your eyes are getting heavy

While mine fix on the ceiling