Don't Say - Aburden

There is something I can’t explain

And I’m sorry for all of the pain that I caused

I shouldn’t have been the one you had to hate

But it was my selfish self that tore us apart

I was always told that I would be okay

And honestly I think of you constantly

And this is my apology and probably too late

But I guess that’s fate, I guess that’s fate

Don’t say that I’m okay

You know nothing about me at all

I’m fucking not okay

Depression can ruin my whole day

All I need is release from the pain

The constant unhappy disposition

Will no longer be my everyday position

The immensity of all the pain that we contained

That made us go insane, that pushed us away

Don’t say that I’m okay

You know nothing about me at all

I’m fucking not okay

Depression can ruin my whole day

All I need is release from the pain

(Release from the pain)

Don’t say that I’m okay

You know nothing about me at all

I’m fucking not okay

Depression can ruin my whole day

All I need is release from the pain

But I need you to know

That my biggest fear was never losing you

It was loving you so much, that I would lose myself

But it’s hard to face the fact that I lacked

Everything that you wanted to have

But I need you to know that I love every colour you have

(There is something that I can’t explain, but I need you)

There is something I can’t understand

Why you just settled for acceptance

When love was waiting right in front of you

(There is something that I can’t explain, but I need you)

But you said we were both the same

So you should know that depression can ruin my whole day

So don’t say that I’m okay and that everything will be fine

(There is something I can’t explain, but I need you)

Because I always told you that I would be okay

And honestly darling I feel like this constantly

But I need you to know that I love every colour you have

And I’m so sorry that I lacked everything you wanted to have

But my darling I need you to know, that I’m so sorry