Forever Alone - Merkules, Evil Ebenezer

I’ve been tryna drown out all these voices

But lately they don’t got nowhere to go

I guess I’m a product of bad choices

But lately I don’t want all that to show

I was gone for a minute, but I’m back now

Take a blunt to the face then I pass out

I’mma keep it lowkey in the background

Quick flex, got a check then I cash out

I’m hearing voices, these voices won’t ever shut up

I can’t ignore 'em, I’m pourin' shots till the sun up

I thought I told you I’ve mostly been just a fuck up

Don’t let no snakes in my circle, I never trust 'em

Workin' hard on my self improvement

Swear to God I’ll invent the blueprint

I told 'em all I’m the next to do this

I’ve been on the winning team and the rest are stupid

Sometimes I get down on myself

Because I work too hard to fuck with anybody else

This rap shit is a full time job and I work round the clock

I ain’t took nights off, I’m the bad guy

Notice how the good guys lost

Wordsmith for the verses, the hooks don’t stop

Did dirt since birth when I pushed too hard

To let any of you motherfuckers take my spot, it’s Merk

I’ve been tryna drown out all these voices

But lately they don’t got nowhere to go

I guess I’m a product of bad choices

But lately I don’t want all that to show

I’m just tryna live in the moment

But someday’s life can seem out of control

It feels like I’m drownin' in the ocean

I guess I’ll always be forever alone

Truth is I got a slight disorder

Really tryna get my life in order

Gotta do it for wife and daughter

I keep working at night, I’m a loner

Real talk, I’ve been prayin' lots

Stuck in my head with these crazy thoughts

Tryna figure out when the pain will stop

I don’t give a fuck if they hate or not

Hard to deal with the phony friends

No idea where this road will end

Fucked up mind is so intense

I drink and I smoke because I codepend

Don’t tell me how I gotta gain success

Don’t you know life’s a game of chess?

Y’all are wastin' breath, time to fake your death

Watch out, the stress might break your neck

Days get harder and nights get darker

Still gotta conquer and fight my problems

I’m diggin' deep man, I gotta be honest

I’m feelin' exhausted, had it and lost it

Me and Merk, we came up together

We put in work, now they fuckin' fed up

We run this shit man, ain’t no better

This road is long, it don’t last forever

I know I made some bad calls lately

But I won’t let the pressure break me

Talkin' to to myself like I’m crazy

No matter where I’m goin' I’m forever alone

I’ve been tryna drown out all these voices

But lately they don’t got nowhere to go

I guess I’m a product of bad choices

But lately I don’t want all that to show

I’m just tryna live in the moment

But someday’s life can seem out of control

It feels like I’m drownin' in the ocean

I guess I’ll always be forever alone

Don’t you know, don’t you know…

I’m forever alone…