the same things happening to me all the time, even in my dreams - Teen Suicide

I have dreamt about what it’s like to die

And I saw myself becoming shadows again

Just like I did when I was a kid

I saw my bones crack open and all the things I’ve been hiding from you spill out

All the secrets that I never thought I’d tell anyone about

I am warm and I am bored and I am drifting through this place

It’s no better or worse than anything else that’s ever happened to me

But I wish that I’d never met a lot of the people that I’ve met

Not because I don’t like them but because I only let them down

And when you disappoint everyone all the time it’s hard not to want to die

Constantly I feel this weird and shameful feeling

Like I’m being watched by a thousand glowing, vengeful eyes

Behind one way mirrors in public bathrooms and in metro cars

And everywhere I go I know I’m not welcome