Disparity - Svalbard

Transfixed upon the imperfections

Every rough edge of the presentation

I can pick apart all of my reasons

But still I can not rise above them

Have you always been so perfect?

Always known how to play the game?

It’s starting to look that way

Your construct leaves no human trace

And in the ditch of your path I lay

Nothing is coming together

Just fragmenting over and over

I need to stop putting my pen to paper

Lest I need one more hopeless reminder

One more portrait of a person

Who has failed to grow in any direction

Resenting my petty resentments

Never truly alive in the moment

My eyes keep glaring inward

If only looks could kill my thoughts

So preoccupied with my escape

That I have become always away

But all I’m packing are my doubts

And a broken heart I can’t take out

It’s so easy to fake the happiness now

To watch each other wield those smiles

Throwing people off the scent

Of years of futility and discontent

There’s so much disparity

Between the perfect image and the empty reality

Ask what does it matter

Not what does it mean

When you can have all the answers

But they will push you deeper in

Circles

Endless, pointless circles