Wonder If You Wonder - Witt Lowry

Know it’s been a long time, I hear you’re doing just fine

Graduated, got a job and you’ve been working a grind

You’re never looking behind

I know you never found me crossing your mind

But I’d be lying if you didn’t cross mine

From time to time, I see some of your pictures online

«Kindest Regards"was hard, I left my heart on the line

I wrote a song for you, took a couple months of my time

How can you praise him for flowers and a bottle of wine?

You’ll never be mine, remember the time I came to see you?

I thought it would just be you, but there’s twelve other people

You see, there was never «We», so we could never be a sequel

Thought it might’ve been a date that day, did anything to see you

But I’m nothing more than nothing, you’re bluffing saying you care

Our only real connection is memories that we share

I would never try to blame you, cause blaming you isn’t fair

Not that you care, the stress is really starting to wear

And in my music, I took our story and I used it

Don’t care how you were feeling, I’m busy dropping my new shit

Know people gonna love it, I’m buzzing after I do it

I’m gifted with the curse of honesty and the truth is

I loved you more than words, I didn’t know how to prove it

Can’t tell you that in person, but always could through my music

Everyone who said they cared isn’t there, now I’m confused

I’m broken and bruised, lonely, open, empty, and stupid, and still I

I thought I had it all figured out

No, you would never fall for me now

I wonder if you wonder why I’m never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I’m doing right now

You can hear the pain in my sound

Laughed as I fell to the ground

I wonder if you wonder why I’m never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I’m doing right now

And I can’t lie, it hurt a little when you said you didn’t want me

To know I never tried is what continues to haunt me

Every pic I see is you and him, his Twitter trying to taunt me

You think I let it go?

This is old and exhausting

Some offspring, family in a house is what I thought about

Sometimes I wonder if he’ll get that now

See, we know that you picked a different path

Me, I picked a different route

And I can’t help but laugh at how this all played out

You’re over me now, I’m hoping you found only the best

Remember when we used to rap that Kanye West?

«Graduation"in rotation 'cause you liked that best

And back then I didn’t want you, now look, I’m a mess

I open my chest and through me you can see no spine

My profile pic and lyrics I’ve been hiding behind

It looks like you found the love that I was hoping to find

The only you I love’s the one that I create in my mind, and still I

I thought I had it all figured out

No, you would never fall for me now

I wonder if you wonder why I’m never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I’m doing right now

You can hear the pain in my sound

Laughed as I fell to the ground

I wonder if you wonder why I’m never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I’m doing right now

I thought I had it all figured out

No, you would never fall for me now

I wonder if you wonder why I’m never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I’m doing right now

You can hear the pain in my sound

Laughed as I fell to the ground

I wonder if you wonder why I’m never around

I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I’m doing right now

I often wonder if you ever did care

I wonder why in my mind is the only time you ever were there

See, we were friends, but that felt more like pretend

This year is awfully clear, the real us is what I fear

The one where we were only friends and I acted like we dated

And nowadays our conversation is, «Hey, happy belated»

And every song I wrote for you, you know you actually hate it

Because you realize that you never felt the same when you played it

You never cared if I made it, that’s why I waited, you know me

See, all the love that I’ve been getting through my phone feels phony

I rhyme a couple words together, every girl want to blow me

We’re in a world full of people, yet I’m feeling so lonely

If only I could tell myself there’s plenty fish in the sea

But see, the sea is full of sharks, fake guppies, and greed

And as I find myself drowning while I’m fighting to breathe

I realize that I’m in love with what I thought we could be