Something to Remember Me By - To Kill Achilles

It all started July 9th, 2018 when I woke up on my 25th birthday and realized I

couldn’t face the day without reaching for a drink

I had nothing to care for, no one to care about, no direction in life

A passion with no talent

That’s when I turned to the mirror and noticed that the cracks in my skin

started to form

I’m getting old

I guess a glimmer of hope appeared when I was offered a chance to follow my

career

But it just made me feel so alone

So I turned back to the mirror and continued to watch the cracks in my skin grow

This failed being was my deepest anxiety

What if I die alone

So, I just scoffed, leaving home

I turned to God just for someone to talk to

I never believed before and I still don’t

But it was nice to say it out loud

At least there was one constant thing that kept me grounded and that was her

I wrote her a letter to explain how I hoped she’d never leave

By this point I realized I had become a burden to everyone around me

One thing stuck in my head, no man told asked for help

I began to remember my father who passed when I was young

And I started to think perhaps it’s my turn

With such thoughts of death in my head, I started to realize

I was already dead cause I was alone

I pictured my ideal heaven

Just a beach I grew up in

With all of the people that I used to know

And I began to think of my mother

And I began to think I want to see her again

So I guess now this is just something to leave behind

I’m a mento, a token, or just something to remember me by