Reservation Guilt Trip - Tall Paul

Bastard kid immaculate

With the facts I spit I packaged it

Captioned it with the coolest deep maneuvers

To enact the test mastered it

Passed it out it’s tantamount

To classics now

My pedigree’s ahead of me

Young graduate with caps & gowns

I utilize my English

In pursuit of my relinquished soul

They took it from my ancestors

And stole it from my spirits glow

Now I’m out to take it back

I know y’all all relate to that

I ain’t simply fussing bruh

I’m only stating basic facts

Style lax wild cats

With stacks that stretch a mile back

Smile glad riled rants

My map’s gon' make a proud man

Now I stand to be a shining example

Of all I can be cause I focused on the good

And made the most of all the bad things

Sadly the modern day boarding school

Produced a strong dad

Cause the Foster care system

Ensured I didn’t take the same path

Sometimes tough situations

Translate to good things

We say that we’re the voiceless

But I’ll ensure the hood sings

The reservation and the city

Express of our dispossession

I ain’t truly proud of either

But it’s south side until the heavens

Just below the cities ether

No matter what your locale

From midwest reservations

To inner cities in So Cal the no pal

We won’t help ya no way no how

Mindset of oppressors is prevalent

It won’t slow now so what i gotta do

Is take what they give me and multiply

To alter my position envision a place

With duller skies the bullet buys

Supplied with Government rations

My people mastered the art

Of making Survival food happen

They took a tub of lard a bag of flour

Sprinkled in some red power

What ya got is fry bread

The Modern food we all devour

And it’s sorrow, spud on a stick Epidemic

It can make us diabetic

But it still gets us connected

It makes the family kinetic as one

We gon' still taste it with Buds

It makes up for lack of nutrition

By building relationships up

Sure you’re right our new traditions

Are far from flawless propositions

But I’m a keep with new tradition

And use it to further my position

Flip this english into dollars

Reach the pockets of white scholars

Rocking shows inside the college

Food for thought is polished knowledge

Brought it with for college kids

Impressed by it like college chicks

Bodies thick, want the stick

I gives a ish if you liken this to Vicodin

Just a drug, just a thug please learn to love

I judge myself to hush em up

Cause I’m the one who bears the brunt

Man what y’all want?

I’ve learned to trudge lightly

When judging others' standing

Cause my past would’ve got me banished

By traditional justice standards

How do I manage?

I don’t know

All I know is that man can grow

Some mistakes I might take to the grave

But now I behave and that’s the glow

For those who don’t deserve to learn

Deserve chances to earn their word

If they ruin em let em burn

Maybe, if they lack concern

But until that line’s clearly crossed

I can’t be one to crucify

How could I when I’ve deeply hurt

So many lives without losing mine

To anyone I’ve done wrong

Who’s listening to this track

I sincerely apologize

I wish that I could take it back but I can’t

I feel guilt I feel remorse I feel that

And I hope you find the slightest peace

In hearing I’m a changed man

Cause I am, yes I am

A product of my environment

A victim of the system

From birth to retirement

Please, please just listen

I promise I’ve inquired it

It’s been written in my system

From birth to enlightenment

I didn’t come into the world a bad man

I came in a bright aura like all babies do

But I was birthed in a earth

Resembling a trash can

And I learned all the horror

Like all babies do

So when I say I’m a victim of the system

I’m not trying to detract blame

But if you’re still here and you’re still listening

That is not how I came

It was learned and it’s been owned

It was burned and now I’m home

And I’m thankful to have been able

To learn from my mistakes and change

Rather than being shot or locked and chained

Only to be further displaced

If I could I’d apologize to your face

But I don’t know if I can so this is the least I could do