Better By Now - R I T U A L

I close my eyes and count to ten

I’ve made mistakes I know I’ll make again

I write messages I’ll never send

I’m not okay but if you want then I’ll pretend

It’s all good, I’m not scared and I’ll hold on

But you said I’d be better by now

All my friends said I’d be better by now

But who cares?

'Cause I’m not better by now, no

I’m not better by now

And you said I’d be better by now

All my friends said I’d be better by now

But who cares?

'Cause I’m not better by now, no

I’m not better by now

Another 4 AM my battery is low

And I still miss you checking that I got home

Leave the lights on when I sleep alone

And I know I should but I just can’t let go

It’s no good, I’m still scared, wish I was strong

But you said I’d be better by now

All my friends said I’d be better by now

But who cares?

'Cause I’m not better by now, no

I’m not better by now

And you said I’d be better by now

All my friends said I’d be better by now

But who cares?

'Cause I’m not better by now, no

I’m not better by now

I miss you, I miss me

The me I was before, the me before this all

'Cause if I miss you, then I miss me

The me I was before, the me before this all

Yeah, I miss you and I miss me

The me I was before, the me before this all

Yeah, I miss you, I miss me

The me I was before

And you said I’d be better by now

All my friends said I’d be better by now

But who cares?

'Cause I’m not better by now, no

I’m not better by now

And you said I’d be better by now

All my friends said I’d be better by now

But who cares?

'Cause I’m not better by now, no

I’m not better by now