Wondering (How To Believe) - R.A. The Rugged Man, David Myles

I’m wondering about the horrors in the world that we witness

And what’s the purpose of our babies being born into sickness

My cold world of stalactites and spikes of icicles

In a house of disease and handicap blind cripples

I watched half my family die, the shit we been through

I lost my brother, my sister, my cousin, my nephew

I watched the hearse come when my sister lost her first son

The tragedies in life are the lessons that we learn from

We’re all wondering (Yeah)

How to believe (How to believe)

We’re all wondering

How to believe

We’re all won-

A freshman girl named Jenny had a school crush

She hit up his Facebook She finally got the guts

To her surprise he replied and he asked to meet up

And he was fast hands all on her she couldn’t keep up

(We're all won-)

She said slow down he said no way it’s about to go down

Jenny tried to push him off he shoved her to the ground

She tried to bite him and fight him with nowhere to run, hide

He overpowered her and pounded and thrusted inside

He busted inside tonight a piece of Jennifer died

When he was done she walked away as she stumbled and cried

Don’t want the papers to name her or a neighborhood to shame her

She didn’t tell her parents she was scared that they would blame her

A month went by depression and self-hatred

Seeing flashbacks of being forcefully penetrated

The face of the rapist in her brain she can’t take it

Looking through a drawer for a razorblade but not to shave with

(We're all won-won-won)

Her blood leaked down the sink faucet

Her life ended still the rape was never reported

That’s why the rapist coward was never outed

In fact he remained free and even bragged about it

Told his friends about this hot fling with this hot thing

Around town he was the man, the school jock, prom king

The nerve with him, woman in town they worshipped him

The worst part is that Jenny was only his first victim

We’re all wondering

How to believe (How to believe)

We’re all wondering (Yeah, yeah)

How to believe (How to believe)

Yo

Now our parents are pill popping unapologetic and the neighborhoods are

infested, the heroin epidemic

And little Eric started cutting classes and then the heroin entered his

bloodstream through his nasal passage

And every time his mom looked inside his eyes she would cry

Beady eyed, pupils small, nose runny, mouth dry

Picking scabs off his body everyday getting high

Glory of the euphoria nausea when it’s missing

No Resistin' the itchin' for a fixin' of the addiction

His momma looking through his baby pictures and reminiscin'

So his mom got him rehab, it got him sober

He went back to high school tryin' to get his diploma

It appeared this nightmare might be finally over

Then he sniffed a bad batch and He fell into a coma

Six months in a vegetative state no closure

Complications in his lungs then he died from Pneumonia

Mommas baby boy born innocent and wholesome

Used to change his diapers and breastfeed him and hold him

She reminisce of little league when Eric hit a home run

Why should a mother have to live to bury her own son I’m wondering

We’re all wondering

How to believe (How to believe)

We’re all wondering (Yeah, yeah)

How to believe (Yeah)

We’re all wondering

How to believe (How to believe)

We’re all won-