I See What I Am - Patti LuPone

Because a man cries, «I am what I see.»

A woman sighs, «What you see is me.»

But Mary says, «Goddamn!

I see what I am.»

At the beginning of time, there was no God

There was just a lonely woman whose life felt flawed

It was the birth of the blues, she hatched a plan

She said to herself, «I'mma make me a man.»

She huffed and puffed and reached deep within

She birthed a man-child who was ugly as sin

She wrapped his face up in a cloud

As if he were maimed when in fact he was proud

Because a man cries, «I am what I see.»

A woman sighs, «What you see is me.»

But Mary says, «Goddamn!

I see what I am.»

Now that’s how God came to insist

That nobody else really exists

He made a mirror he called Mankind

Held it up to his face then he wished he was blind

He flung Mankind away in disgust

It shattered into pieces of us

But Mary swept us up so fast

You know she gave us the earth, you know she blew us like glass

Because a man cries, «I am what I see.»

A woman sighs, «What you see is me.»

But Mary says, «Goddamn

I see what I motherfucking am!»

Mary had a little lamb

And that’s when the shit hit the fan

Now did she regret it, goddamn

Talk about the best laid plans

Did she regret it, goddamn

Now the Virgin’s on the lam

Doodly-doo, doodly-da-dow

Doodly-doo

Doodly-doo, doodly-doo-doo-doo-doo

Turns out he was just a man

And still we fear our Daddy’s blame

Our broken faces reflected shame

We drown in drink, we spike our veins

We gorge on vengeance to purge the pain

From fix to fix, I hop across the river

Just a single arrow in my quiver

I shelter within my future corpse

My body blackens, I scream til I’m hoarse

I once asked you to make it stop

My hands are shaking, my rhythm is shot

So baby, if you love me, tie me off

Tacit the band, let’s hear the needle drop

And now, mother wild and true

I find that I must turn to you

When will you return?

When will you return?

Upon your people, you once smiled

My tears send us a brand new child

Soon will you return

Soon will you return

The man who drowns floats face down

But the woman who dies faces the sky