Clinic - Muncie Girls

I called the clinic and they said it was a three-week wait

‘But the doctor’ll give you something just to get you through the day.'

I’m scared, I’ve never felt like this before

The only way I can stop from crying it to take deep breaths and sit on the floor

I woke early this morning coz my appointment was today

She asked me what I’ve been up to and if everything’s okay

I said ‘Frustration passes through me

The way that wind shakes trees.'

When the panic set in, it was all I knew

The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew

When the panic set in, it was all I knew

The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew

She asked me to go home, unclench my fists

Think of everything that’s stressful and start a list

I thought, ‘Yeah, if I could actually see my life

Maybe I could compartmentalise the dark and the light.'

I woke up early that Tuesday as I did then every week

And the more times that I did that, the less I felt like a freak

But I got added to fixed list even though I struggle still

When the panic set in, it was all I knew

The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew

When the panic set in, it was all I knew

The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew

I used to have friends

I used to know why

I felt sad, if I ever did

But now I feel that all the time

I used to have friends

I used to know why

I felt sad, if I ever did

But now I feel that all the time

When the panic set in, it was all I knew

The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew

When the panic set in, it was all I knew

The sadness washed my skin and shaking grew