Slave To Satisfaction - Malevolence

I have succumb to the poison around me

I am driven to ignore the despair

Keep searching for a lesson

A choice I never question

Pushed into a state of disrepair

The scars will never fade

Till I’m in my grave

I’m reaching out to you

But I’m clutching at smoke

Getting deeper in this hole

The fight inside was never fair

Now nothing can destroy me

This is the ecstasy that I feel

When it’s my turn I’m starting to forget

Instant doubt, creeping regret

What can I do to make this go away

I feel the misery eating at me every day

I’m fading in, bleeding out, dragging myself down

How many times can I make this mistake

I can feel myself slipping away

Tired eyes, early graves

From the top of the world

To the bottom of the barrel

Eating me away from the inside

A test of my sanity

I know in the end what will be, will be

I know in the end what will be, will be

A test of a my sanity

What doesn’t destroy you

Will make you wish that it did

Inflicted, Inflicted on myself

Inflicted, Inflicted on myself

From the top of the world

To the bottom of the barrel

Eating me away from the inside

A test of my sanity

I know in the end what will be, will be

I know in the end what will be, will be

A test of a my sanity

Searching for the fix

Another stone in the wall of life

So when the cracks appear

Will you be there when it all comes crashing down

Still alone

Still searching for my soul

No one to blame but my self control

Still alone

Still searching for my soul

No one to blame but my self control

Another slave to satisfaction

Was it all really fucking worth it?