Letter to My Abuser - Light This City

To my nemesis

My confidant

Do not expect me to make more requests

I have done penance for my sins

You’re in debt to me one thousand promises

Just yesterday I went again to collect what I’m owed

I found my dreams showered upon undeserving wretches

Like bones dripping blood thrown to mangy strays

And my secrets were being vomited

From the mouths of glistening gluttons while I stood empty-handed

While I stood empty-handed and exposed

You’ve abused your power

Angel

You have fallen once more from my good graces

I’m sick

I’ve prayed

I’ve seen healthy men healed by your touch

When I’m the one who needs your love

It’s a hypocrite’s faith

A hypocrite’s world

I am not awed by your presents

If they only suit the ones already blessed

Your son lies raped in the dirt that you’ve made

Are you willing to sacrifice another child

Bloodthirsty liar

How am I supposed to trust you

When the knife is in your hand

And the gash that I own whispers to an enemy

Thoughts I had buried

Creator

You’re my destructor

Am I not your daughter

My insides displayed to the world

Are you not my father

My insides displayed to the world

Bloodthirsty liar

How am I supposed to trust you

When the knife is in your hand

And the gash that I own whispers to an enemy

Thoughts I had buried

To my nemesis

My confidant

Do not expect me to make more requests

I have done penance for my sins

You’re in debt to me one thousand promises

Just yesterday I went again to collect what I’m owed

I found my dreams showered upon undeserving wretches

Like bones dripping blood thrown to mangy strays