The Ugly Side Of Beautiful - Khrysis, Add-2, GQ

My grandmother dementia is getting worse and my first thought was fuck

What next?

When it rains, it pours

Feeling crushed, sitting stuck like, what can I say?

How can I get a grip, you slipping further away

You used to tell me we can’t live for tomorrow, we ain’t promised today

In the belly of the beast you always told me to pray

With God, you don’t argue, I’m human, it’s hard not to

'Specially when you look in my eyes and say «who are you?»

It breaks my heart, this frame of mind is painting pictures, ain’t made for art

'Dre this world it’s just a stage, just play your part

How can you make it through the night when your days are dark?

Rain on my windowpane, four people I loved died in a week and a half

Have you ever been so hurt you sit back and you laugh?

See sometimes it takes courage just to walk through your fears

And sometimes you gotta smile just to hold back the tears

I wonder how much pressure these little shoulders can take

Feel like they bout to break like fuck it, I need a break

Like stop, I’m tryna brake, I’m tryna carry the weight

You made in the Lord’s image, you designed to be great

But success is like a drug and I’m losing my buzz

Nothing lasts, but I’m tryna make some music that does

From black love and black hate and black plight

I show the shit that they don’t show like a black light

What I write takes flight like the Wright Brothers

Where I take it they can’t measure the height, brother

They over like motor bikes, ain’t got a hood

I’ll on my worst day, they ain’t half as good

In the city where plenty semis will kill kids

Grazed memories are gone, but shit I’m still here

You never live to see the flowers at your funeral

That’s the ugly side of beautiful

talks about the future

Wasn’t fit for it, they tell me it still suit ya

Converse about a spot we done flew to

If you ain’t on my plane what’s it to ya?

Nigga

I kept pushing, they kept looking I look through ya

Drew Barrymore next day never knew ya

On a porch, my pop telling' me what’s in store

For every lesson I question what it’s for

Only look back on rear view glimpses

Life’s short so I take more pictures

Funeral’s coming faster than birthdays, I make more wishes

Up in these trees I ain’t helping no kittens

Incredibly I ain’t losing that feeling, gotta check for a

What if they love me more than forehead kisses, do it count though?

An amount so high to a new place

Everything good and a few great

Wait, wait brand new day upon us

Bad weather couldn’t tarnish

Look at what life done taught us

We was gonna make it regardless

Kind of music make the night sound gorgeous

Peeling off on them, sliced out oranges

What I’m offering is bright enough to match a lighthouse mortgage

Sliding and slipping like wipeout courses on this bitch

Who been achieving, I’m guilty gave them my Prince

Bitches playing like lifeguards, looking at me like squints

Looking at it I trip, no book feeling

87 again we got that no look feeling

It’s no more Dodge and the ceilings

Sky’s the limit, these clouds gon' fill it

Look at what we overcame, to champagne from soda, change I had to

From Oakland to Chi-Town what up to Add-2

Record was laid I just felt I had some shit to add too

For the ones that work tired in a cubicle

Planned this years ago, looks what I done grew into

Walking to the beat I made a musical

Welcome to the ugly side of beautiful