What Should Have Been - Josie Charlwood

Had I known, for any length of time

I would’ve told you no

I would’ve changed your mind and made you sure

I would’ve made you feel like you were loved and more

I wish you’d said

So I could take those horrid thoughts out of your head

I would’ve saved us both some awful bad regret

I should’ve had you my friend, for years yet

And I can’t bear, to let you down again

And know it’s for the last time

For the last time

I can’t see, cause the air you’d have breathed has swallowed me

Swallowed me

Fall back to now

I still expect to have you here when I turn around

I still long to hear your voice but there’s no sound

In my mind I’m searching reasons, they go round

Round and round

And as for me, all I see is your face when I try and sleep

Kept awake by all the memories I won’t keep

Wondering why you took away what should have been

And I can’t bear, to let you down again

And know it’s for the last time

For the last time

I can’t see, cause the air you’d have breathed has swallowed me

Me

Once, twice, captured everyone

Every blink, every tear under this stone cold sun

Was it you?

Was it me?

Is a question asked by everyone but you know

It’s too late now

It’s too late now

I wish you were home, but you’re not

I wish you were mine, but you’re gone

Ooh

But you’re gone

I can’t bear, I let you down my friend

For the last time, for the last time

And I can’t breathe, cause the world you’ve have seen

Has captured me

Ooh, has captured me

Ooh

I wish you were home

I wish you weren’t gone