Bad Santa - Joell Ortiz, !llmind, Jared Evan

Sometimes I wonder if he knows I love him

I don’t feel that daddy squeeze when I hug him

He says «I love you"when he hangin' up the phone but it’s muffled

Like he’s uncomfortable sayin' it, so his voice has trouble

Gettin' the words out, his mother gave up bein' my baby

She packed her bags and hit Atlanta when he was a baby

Man them first couple of years it was crazy

I’m back and forth to child support then she agreed he could stay with me

On Christmas vacations, I would lift him up, raise him

So high in the air, my eyes tearin', this kid is amazin'

This year is the fourth generation PlayStation I know he’s awaitin'

It’s under that tree waitin'

It’s that look on his face when he’s happy that makes me proud to be daddy

When he runs over and grabs me, filled with true joy

In the same moment I’m bothered, I mean he knows I’m his father

But am I just that once-a-year homie with new toys?

Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift

Every 25th he’s unwrappin' his gifts

Pardon me if I curse when I’m rappin' and shit

But sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift

A curse comes wrapped as a gift

Sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift

Every 25th he’s unwrappin' his gifts

Am I a bad Santa?

Will you show up in the middle of night?

Will you be the one to turn off the lights?

I hope so

When I see you, everything is alright

But will you really be here tonight?

I don’t know

It’s like all this time, I’ve been wanderin', waiting for you

You stay on my mind, cause I belong to you

Santa…

Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift

Every 25th he’s unwrappin' his gifts

Pardon me if I curse when I’m rappin' and shit

But sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift

A curse comes wrapped as a gift

Sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift

Every 25th he’s unwrappin' his gifts

Am I a bad Santa?

It’s you I’ll always be there for

I’m just wishin' I could be there more

This music’s keepin' me on tour

But I’ll be right back to see my boy

Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift

Every 25th he’s unwrappin' his gifts

Pardon me if I curse when I’m rappin' and shit

But sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift

A curse comes wrapped as a gift

Sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift

Every 25th he’s unwrappin' his gifts

Am I a bad Santa?