Qualcuno Era Comunista - Giorgio Gaber

Mh?

No

Non è vero, io non ho niente da rimproverarmi.

Voglio dire, non mi sembra di

aver fatto delle cose gravi

La mia vita?

Una vita normale: non ho mai rubato, neanche in casa da piccolo,

non ho ammazzato nessuno figuriamoci, qualche atto impuro ma è normale no?

Lavoro, ho una famiglia, pago le tasse, non mi sembra di avere dell colpe

Non vado neanche a caccia, per dire

Mh?

Ah voi parlavate di prima, ah

Ma prima, beh, prima mi sono comportato come tutti

Come mi vestivo?

Come mi vestivo, mi vestivo come ora!

Beh, non proprio come ora, un po' più, sì,

jeans, maglione, l’eskimo, perché?

Non va bene?

Era comodo

Cosa cantavo?

Questa poi, volete sapere cosa cantavo?

Sì certo, anche canzoni popolari sì, ciao bella ciao

Devo parlare un po' più forte?

Sì, «Ciao Bella Ciao» l’ho cantata, d’accordo

E anche l’Internazionale, però in coro eh, in coro

Sì, quello sì lo ammetto, sì, ci sono andato sì.

Gli ho visti anche io gli

Inti-Illimani

Però non ho pianto!

Come?

Se in camera ho delle foto?

Che discorsi, certo, le foto dei miei genitori, mia moglie, mia f-

Manifesti?

Non mi pare mh

Forse uno, piccolo però, piccolo

Che Guevara

Ma cos'è un processo questo qui?

No!

No no no no, io quello no

Io il pugno non l’ho mai fatto, il pugno no, mai

Beh insomma

Una volta ma, un pugnettino, rapido proprio

Come?

Se ero comunista?

Eh, vi piacciono le domande dirette eh?

Volete sapere se ero comunista?

No no finalmente, perché adesso non ne parla

più nessuno, fanno tutti finta di niente e invece è giusto chiarirle queste

cose, una volta per tutte

Oh, se ero comunista

Mah

In che senso?

No, voglio dire, qualcuno era comunista

Perché era nato in Emilia

Qualcuno era comunista perché il nonno lo zio il papà.

La mamma no

Qualcuno era comunista perché vedeva la Russia come una promessa,

la Cina come una poesia, il comunismo come il paradiso terrestre

Qualcuno era comunista perché si sentiva solo

Qualcuno era comunista perché aveva avuto una educazione troppo cattolica.

Ahi ahi ahi ahi

Qualcuno era comunista perché il cinema lo esigeva, il teatro lo esigeva,

la pittura lo esigeva, la letteratura anche, lo esigevano tutti

Qualcuno era comunista perché glielo avevano detto

Qualcuno era comunista perché non gli avevano detto tutto

Qualcuno era comunista perché prima, prima prima, era fascista

Qualcuno era comunista perché aveva capito che la Russia andava piano,

ma lontano

Qualcuno era comunista perché Berlinguer era una brava persona

Qualcuno era comunista perché Andreotti non era una brava persona

Qualcuno era comunista perché era ricco ma amava il popolo

Qualcuno era comunista perché beveva il vino e si commuoveva alle feste popolari

Qualcuno era comunista perché era così ateo che aveva bisogno di un altro Dio

Qualcuno era comunista perché era talmente affascinato dagli operai che voleva

essere uno di loro

Qualcuno era comunista perché non ne poteva più di fare l’operaio

Qualcuno era comunista perché voleva l’aumento di stipendio

Qualcuno era comunista perché la rivoluzione oggi no, domani forse,

ma dopodomani sicuramente

Qualcuno era comunista perché, la borghesia il proletariato la lotta di classe

cazzo

Qualcuno era comunista per fare rabbia a suo padre

Qualcuno era comunista perché guardava solo Rai 3

Qualcuno era comunista per moda, qualcuno per principio, qualcuno per

frustrazione

Qualcuno era comunista perché voleva statalizzare tutto.

Minchia

Qualcuno era comunista perché non conosceva gli impiegati statali,

parastatali e affini

Qualcuno era comunista perché aveva scambiato il materialismo dialettico per il

vangelo secondo Lenin

Qualcuno era comunista perché era convinto di avere dietro di sé la classe

operaia.

O cazzo

Qualcuno era comunista perché era più comunista degli altri

Qualcuno era comunista perché c’era il grande partito comunista

Qualcuno era comunista malgrado ci fosse il grande partito comunista

Qualcuno era comunista perché non c’era niente di meglio

Qualcuno era comunista perché abbiamo avuto il peggior partito socialista

d’Europa

Qualcuno era comunista perché lo stato peggio che da noi, solo l’Uganda

Qualcuno era comunista perché non ne poteva più di quarant’anni di governi

democristiani incapaci e mafiosi

Qualcuno era comunista perché Piazza Fontana, Brescia, la stazione di Bologna,

l’Italicus, Ustica eccetera eccetera eccetera

Qualcuno era comunista perché chi era contro era comunista

Qualcuno era comunista perché non sopportava più quella cosa sporca che ci

ostiniamo a chiamare democrazia

Qualcuno credeva di essere comunista, e forse era qualcos’altro

Qualcuno era comunista perché sognava una libertà diversa da quella americana

Qualcuno era comunista perché credeva di poter essere vivo e felice,

solo se lo erano anche gli altri

Qualcuno era comunista perché aveva bisogno di una spinta verso qualcosa di

nuovo.

Perché sentiva la necessità di una morale diversa

Perché forse era solo una forza, un volo, un sogno, era solo uno slancio,

un desiderio di cambiare le cose, di cambiare la vita

Sì, qualcuno era comunista perché con accanto questo slancio ognuno era come,

più di se stesso.

Era come due persone in una

Da una parte la personale fatica quotidiana e dall’altra, il senso di

appartenenza a una razza, che voleva spiccare il volo, per cambiare veramente

la vita

No, niente rimpianti.

Forse anche allora molti, avevano aperto le ali,

senza essere capaci di volare, come dei gabbiani ipotetici

E ora?

Anche ora, ci si sente come in due.

Da una parte l’uomo inserito che

attraversa ossequiosamente lo squallore della propria sopravvivenza quotidiana

e dall’altra, il gabbiano senza più neanche l’intenzione del volo,

perché ormai il sogno si è rattrappito

Due miserie in un corpo solo

Mh?

No

That's not true, I have nothing to blame myself for.

I mean, it doesn't seem to me to

having done serious things

My life?

A normal life: I have never stolen, not even at home as a child,

I haven't killed anyone let alone some impure act but it's normal isn't it?

I work, I have a family, I pay taxes, I don't seem to be at fault

I don't even go hunting, so to speak

Mh?

Ah you were talking about before, ah

But first, well, first I acted like everyone else

How did I dress?

How I dressed, I dressed like now!

Well, not quite like now, a little more, yeah,

jeans, sweater, eskimo, why?

That's no good?

Was it comfortable

What was I singing?

This then, do you want to know what I was singing?

Yes of course, popular songs too, yes, bye beautiful bye

Do I need to speak a little louder?

Yes, "Ciao Bella Ciao" I sang it, all right

And also the International, but in chorus eh, in chorus

Yes, that yes I admit, yes, I went there yes.

I saw him too

Inti-Illimani

But I didn't cry!

How?

What if I have photos in the room?

What speeches, of course, the photos of my parents, my wife, my f-

Posters?

I do not think mh

Maybe one, small though, small

Che Guevara

But what is this a process here?

No!

No no no no, I'm not the one

I have never done the fist, the fist no, never

Well in short

Once but, a fist, just quick

How?

Was I a Communist?

Eh, you like direct questions huh?

Do you want to know if I was a communist?

No no finally, because now he doesn't talk about it

nobody anymore, they all pretend nothing has happened and instead it is right to clarify these

things, once and for all

Oh, if I was a communist

Mah

What do you mean?

No, I mean, someone was a communist

Because he was born in Emilia

Someone was a communist because the grandfather, the uncle, the father.

Mom doesn't

Someone was a communist because he saw Russia as a promise,

China as a poem, communism as the earthly paradise

Someone was a communist because he felt alone

Someone was a communist because he had had too much a Catholic education.

Ouch ouch ouch ouch

Someone was a communist because the cinema required it, the theater required it,

painting demanded it, literature too, everyone demanded it

Someone was a communist because they had been told

Someone was a communist because they hadn't told him everything

Someone was a communist because before, before before, he was a fascist

Someone was a communist because he understood that Russia was going slowly,

but far away

Someone was a communist because Berlinguer was a good person

Someone was a communist because Andreotti was not a good person

Someone was a communist because he was rich but he loved the people

Someone was a communist because he drank wine and was moved by popular festivals

Someone was a communist because he was so atheist that he needed another God

Someone was a communist because he was so fascinated by the workers that he wanted

be one of them

Someone was a communist because he was no longer able to be a worker

Someone was a communist because he wanted a salary increase

Someone was a communist because the revolution is not today, tomorrow perhaps,

but the day after tomorrow for sure

Someone was a communist because the bourgeoisie, the proletariat, the class struggle

fuck

Someone was a communist to anger his father

Someone was a communist because he only watched Rai 3

Someone was a communist for fashion, someone on principle, someone for

frustration

Someone was a communist because he wanted to nationalize everything.

Fuck

Someone was a communist because he didn't know civil servants,

parastatals and related

Someone was a communist because he had mistaken dialectical materialism for

gospel according to Lenin

Someone was a communist because he was convinced that he had the class behind him

factory Girl.

Or fuck

Someone was a communist because he was more a communist than the others

Someone was a communist because there was the great communist party

Someone was a communist despite the fact that there was a large communist party

Someone was a communist because there was nothing better

Someone was a communist because we had the worst socialist party

of Europe

Someone was a communist because the state is worse than here, only Uganda

Someone was a communist because he couldn't stand more than forty years of government

incapable Christian Democrats and mafia

Someone was a communist because Piazza Fontana, Brescia, the station of Bologna,

Italicus, Ustica, etc., etc., etc.

Someone was a communist because whoever was against it was a communist

Someone was a communist because he couldn't stand that dirty thing anymore

we persist in calling democracy

Someone believed they were a communist, and maybe it was something else

Someone was a communist because he dreamed of a freedom different from the American one

Someone was a communist because he believed he could be alive and happy,

only if the others were too

Someone was a communist because he needed a push towards something

new.

Because he felt the need for a different morality

Because maybe it was just a force, a flight, a dream, it was just an impulse,

a desire to change things, to change life

Yes, someone was a communist because with this momentum beside each other everyone was like,

more than himself.

It was like two people in one

On the one hand, the personal daily toil and on the other, the sense of

belonging to a race, which wanted to take flight, to really change

the life

No, no regrets.

Perhaps even then many had opened their wings,

without being able to fly, like hypothetical seagulls

And now?

Even now, it feels like two.

On the one hand, the man added that

obsequiously goes through the squalor of his daily survival

and on the other, the seagull without even the intention of flying anymore,

because now the dream has shrunk

Two miseries in one body