Element 5: Resignation - Diary of Dreams

«Greif nicht nach den Sternen, wenn dir eine Welt zu Füßen liegt»,

hat mal jemand zu mir gesagt.

Schwachsinn!

Das einzige, was mir zu Füßen liegt,

sind die Überreste einer jämmerlichen Existenz.

Wer alles hat, hat eben viel

zu verlieren.

Ich habe nichts.

Also wovor sollte ich Angst haben?

Keiner könnte verstehen, was jetzt gerade in mir vorgeht.

Die zitternden Wände

und der bebende Boden irritieren nur leicht.

Die Zunge schleppt zögerlich Worte

zu Tage, und schon wieder geht das Licht aus.

Verdammt, warte mal eben…

alles kehrt zurück zu einer einzigen Frage: Was mache ich hier eigentlich?

Ich wollte meinen Frieden mit der Welt, aber die Welt wollte meinen Frieden

nicht

«Don't reach for the stars when the world is lying at your feet,»

someone once said to me.

Bullshit!

The only things lying at my feet are the

remains of a pitiful existence.

Those who have everything have a lot to lose.

I have nothing.

So what do I have to be afraid of?

No one can understand what I am going through right now.

The trembling walls

and vibrating floors are only a minor irritation.

Hesitantly, the tongue

quarries words, and again, the light goes out.

Damn, wait a second…

everything comes down to one single question: What am I doing here?!

I wanted to have peace with the world but the world does not want peace with me

"Don't reach for the stars when you have a world at your feet"

someone once said to me.

bullshit!

The only thing lying at my feet

are the remains of a miserable existence.

If you have everything, you have a lot

to lose.

I do not have anything.

So what should I be afraid of?

No one could understand what is going on inside me right now.

The trembling walls

and the trembling ground are only slightly irritating.

The tongue hesitantly drags words

to day, and again the light goes out.

Damn, wait a minute...

everything returns to one single question: What am I actually doing here?

I wanted my peace with the world, but the world wanted my peace

not

"Don't reach for the stars when the world is lying at your feet,"

someone once said to me.

bullshit!

The only things lying at my feet are the

remains of a pitiful existence.

Those who have everything have a lot to lose.

I have nothing.

So what do I have to be afraid of?

No one can understand what I am going through right now.

The trembling walls

and vibrating floors are only a minor irritation.

Hesitantly, the tongue

quarries words, and again, the light goes out.

Damn, wait a second...

everything comes down to one single question: What am I doing here?!

I wanted to have peace with the world but the world does not want peace with me