Deeper Than Love - Colleen Green

Someday, I hope for a lover to kill me

It’s the closest I can hope to get to anybody

It’s the closest I can come to being really free

And there’s a ring of questions on my mind lately

Like will I find a love that lasts as long as my life?

Or will I die before ever becoming a wife?

And I’m wondering if I’m even the marrying kind

How can I give you my life when I know you’re just gonna die?

Is there anything stronger than biology?

Is love being ruined by technology?

Nowadays, commitment seems like a burden to carry

I don’t wanna think about it

I don’t wanna (I don’t wanna)

Think about it (think about it)

I don’t wanna (I don’t wanna)

Think about it (think about it)

I don’t wanna (I don’t wanna)

Think about it (think about it)

I don’t wanna think about it

It’s too scary

And the closest I can come to being really free

Is letting my lover perform experiments on me

Observe and analyze

And empirically hypothesize

'Cause I wanna know real love so desperately

But I think it’s gotta happen scientifically

'Cause I’m scared, afraid of real intimacy

You know, the kind they say happens psychologically

Dressed up like a surgeon, you cut open my heart

Remove the brain and leave the body in charge

No more emotions taking control

We’ll pick a part and play out our roles

Further than fantasy

Deeper than love could ever be

Further than fantasy

Deeper than love could ever be

And the only best friends I ever made

Were people I knew I didn’t have to see every day

The closest to true love I ever came

Was with someone I kept many miles away

'Cause I’m wary of eliminating distance

This could surely be the death of any romance

'Cause I’m shitty and I’m lame and I’m dumb and I’m a bore

And once you get to know me, you won’t love me anymore

And that possibility worries me the most

Not harm or abuse or becoming a ghost

It’s the closeness, the intimacy

I’m afraid it might kill me

Further than fantasy

Deeper than love could ever be

Further than fantasy

Deeper than love could ever be