Harbor - Clairo

Okay I’m finished now

And I kept my faith for long enough

And I hope I’m old and fairly sober

If I’m let down

Maybe you keep me around

For the constant affirmations

While I scrounge for understanding

And fall out

I’ll let you win

And I’ll let you tie

The ribbon to my hair

Just so that we

Could come back to this if we

Really cared

The morning gates stay open

If you had a thought that I’d be there

(Oh I’d be there)

Know we could use a break

Because I can’t feel my feet

I carried you all the way upstairs

So you can sleep and I can think

Stand guard

When I am near

Clinging on to everything you fear

Keeping m close

While you hold me out and say

I don’t lov you that way

Harbor myself

Away from everyone else

I’m half awake

And intimate

Eyes closed

And I’ll commit

What I wish I had with you

I’ll pretend until It’s true

I don’t love you that way

Swallow the pill

It’s only fair that I hear

Know myself

Better than I have in years

I don’t know why

I have to defend what I feel

I try

Stand your guard

When I am near

Loathe me until

You’re reminded

Of the deal

One of us knows

When you hold me out and say

You don’t love me that way