Ingenting blir det samme men samme for meg - Cezinando

Jeg var et engstelig barn

Enebarn

Ene karen som ikke ville spille fotball for jeg var ballettdanser

Gikk meg alltid bort i verden, jeg hadde aldri stedssanser

Og pappaen min var utelivskonge

Jeg visste gavene var der når jeg så bilen hans komme

Og hva som skjedde egentlig første skoledag blir bare gjetting

Men jeg så nabogutten min gå imot rektor med en kjetting

Og det var

Da jeg ble redd for verden og alt den måtte romme

Alle virka så dumme, jeg svarte stemmen i hodet mitt

Gjemte meg inne på rommet

Jeg hadde en femti kilos rottweiler mamma kalte Diva

Som vi ende med å ta livet av

Jeg fikk venner som var mennesker

Bumpa trippel seks og flere størrelser opp i genser

Det var da jeg begynte å like grenser

(Ikke slipp meg av syne for hauken kommer)

Lei av å tråkke tilbake i mine spor

Var noen ting jeg mista på veien, vet ikke hvor, eller hva

Der mine besteforeldre bor

Jeg er aldri noens fetter eller bror

Da jeg tør å se tilbake, ser jeg skygger

Prøvde å ta de inntil kragen, men de rygger

Ga meg gåsehud på magen, skjønte at alt jeg trodde var feil

Ingenting som blir det samme, men det er samme for meg

Satt musestille til midnatt og lata som vi ikke gjorde no

For da ble Nickelodeon om til porno

Alle konger møter tilbakefall

Ungdomsklubber, flasker med rare mikser og svart metall

Selvmord og premature e-ord

Jeg var flink med de, men klarte ikke å si det jeg ville med ord

Skrev ned ting og gjemte de i skuffen på do

Vi gjorde innbrudd i biler og delte potten på to, ah

Jeg likte logo-ting og Burberry

Gutta bare: «Bestemors gardiner»

De syns det var nørd, ærlig talt va’kke så ille

Men pakka ned alt i boden og gråt av det i flere timer

Dag og natt

Da jeg og Eirik fikk en trehytte

Var jeg bare glad for vi fikk skygge til skjermen til våres Gameboy

En verden av fantasier, men voksnes fantasier og kanyler kom oss i veien

Og det var

Da jeg ble redd for verden og alt den måtte romme

Alle virka så dumme, jeg svarte stemmen i hodet mens øyelokka ble tunge

Jeg hadde en femti kilos rottweiler mamma kalte Diva

Som vi ende med å ta livet av

Og jeg fikk venner i fra blokka

Sommerferier uten å noen gang se på klokka

Det var da tiden sku' stoppa

Lei av å tråkke tilbake i mine spor

Var noen ting jeg mista på veien, vet ikke hvor, eller hva

Der mine besteforeldre bor

Jeg er aldri noens fetter eller bror

Da jeg tør å se tilbake ser jeg skygger

Prøvde å ta de inntil kragen, men de rygger

Ga meg gåsehud på magen, skjønte at alt jeg trodde var feil

Ingenting som blir det samme, men det er samme for meg

Lei av å tråkke tilbake i mine spor

Var noen ting jeg mista på veien, vet ikke hvor, eller hva

Der mine besteforeldre bor

Jeg er aldri noens fetter eller bror

Da jeg tør å se tilbake ser jeg skygger

Prøvde å ta de inntil kragen, men de rygger

Ga meg gåsehud på magen, skjønte at alt jeg trodde var feil

Ingenting som blir det samme, men det er samme for meg

I was an anxious child

Only child

One guy who did not want to play football because I was a ballet dancer

Always went away in the world, I never had a sense of place

And my dad was a nightlife king

I knew the gifts were there when I saw his car coming

And what really happened the first day of school is just guesswork

But I saw my neighbor boy go against the principal with a chain

And it was

When I was afraid of the world and all it had to hold

Everyone seemed so stupid, I answered the voice in my head

Hidden inside the room

I had a fifty pound rottweiler mom called Diva

Which we end up killing

I made friends who were human

Bump triple six and several sizes up in sweater

That's when I started to like boundaries

(Do not lose sight of the hawk coming)

Tired of stepping back in my footsteps

Were some things I lost along the way, do not know where or what

Where my grandparents live

I'm never anyone's cousin or brother

When I dare to look back, I see shadows

Tried to take them to the collar, but they back up

Gave me goosebumps on my stomach, realized that everything I thought was wrong

Nothing that will be the same, but it is the same for me

Sat quietly until midnight and lazy as we did not no

Because then Nickelodeon turned into porn

All kings face relapse

Youth clubs, bottles with weird mixers and black metal

Suicide and premature e-words

I was good with them, but could not say what I wanted in words

Wrote things down and hid them in the drawer on the toilet

We broke into cars and split the pot in two, ah

I liked the logo stuff and the Burberry

Guys only: "Grandma's curtains"

They think it's a nerd, to be honest, it's not that bad

But pack everything in the stall and cry for hours on end

Day and night

When Eirik and I got a wooden cabin

I was just glad we got shade for the screen of our Gameboy

A world of fantasies, but adults' fantasies and needles got in our way

And it was

When I was afraid of the world and all it had to hold

Everyone seemed so stupid, I answered the voice in my head while my eyelids became heavy

I had a fifty pound rottweiler mom called Diva

Which we end up killing

And I made friends from the block

Summer vacations without ever looking at the clock

That was when time would stop

Tired of stepping back in my footsteps

Were some things I lost along the way, do not know where or what

Where my grandparents live

I'm never anyone's cousin or brother

When I dare to look back I see shadows

Tried to take them to the collar, but they back up

Gave me goosebumps on my stomach, realized that everything I thought was wrong

Nothing that will be the same, but it is the same for me

Tired of stepping back in my footsteps

Were some things I lost along the way, do not know where or what

Where my grandparents live

I'm never anyone's cousin or brother

When I dare to look back I see shadows

Tried to take them to the collar, but they back up

Gave me goosebumps on my stomach, realized that everything I thought was wrong

Nothing that will be the same, but it is the same for me