Don't Want 2 Go Outside - Cam Meekins

I don’t want to judge you, I just want to love you

My life feel like a circle, and I thought you was the one too

Don’t want to go outside today

I don’t want to go outside today

Lately I really feel like I’m stuck inside of this mic

'Cause this life that I have is dark, I can’t find my way to the light

I’ve been captured by these emotions, can’t struggle, put up a fight

I go through it, really just coasting, don’t know that I’ll be alright

Been holding up peoples problems, ain’t focusing on my own

They wan’t us trapped in the system, don’t wanna see people grow

My doctor prescribed these pills, does that mean that he ain’t the plug?

When she fucked me just for the clout, does that mean that it isn’t love?

People think that the more you get, the more happier you become

But unless you’re good with yourself, money just gonna buy you drugs

I’ve been stuck inside of this cycle, sometimes don’t even wake up

These feeble dreams that I have leave my screaming «I'm not alone!»

Just know if you going through it, I feel you, 'cause I’ve been there

No telling if times goes slow, just know that it isn’t fair

I know people gonna make assumptions, like what you said isn’t real

But if you felt like how I feel, I feel

I don’t want to judge you, I just want to love you

My life feel like a circle, and I thought you was the one too

Don’t want to go outside today

I don’t want to go outside today

I don’t want nothing from you, just lean on me for comfort

I can’t get out the house, baby, everyday is a struggle

Don’t want to go outside today

I don’t want to go outside today

Sometimes I think this weed that I’m smoking don’t make me better

I try to write but don’t feel no emotions, just throwing letters together

I’m growing older, but I’m feeling less

I’m making more money than ever, but feeling stressed

I still feel like I got a purpose bigger than myself

But ain’t nobody gonna push you when you need some help

I just struggle through my addictions, the chicks, and smoking these spliffs

I ain’t get that love growing up, so I’m compensating for this

I read scriptures to help my mom process the things I can’t

I got family problems, but I don’t really want to rant

I got a bunch of debt that I ain’t got a plan for paying off

And I’ve been putting all this work in, I feel like it’s paying off

But I don’t see results, I got a lot that’s in my mind, can’t even see that far

Yeah, down a road I keep going

This all I know, I keep flowing

This poetry, it’s emotion

But feel like I’m barely coping

So God, give me that strength to bring these songs to life

So if these people feel this way, they know it’s all alright

I just thank you for what you gave me

And even the fact you made me

My homie just had a baby

Man, life gon' keep being crazy

I don’t want to judge you, I just want to love you

My life feel like a circle, and I thought you was the one to

Don’t want to go outside today

I don’t want to go outside today

I don’t want nothing from you, just lean on me for comfort

I can’t get out the house, baby, everyday is a struggle

Don’t want to go outside today

I don’t want to go outside today