If I Die - Butta Verses, Lucian

«Oh…If I should day tonight

Oh baby, though it would be far before my time

I wouldn’t die blue, sugar yeah cause I known you»

I’m out here tryin' to make thing run

I didn’t think about the one’s I shunned to get it done son

Family and friends can’t stand me again

I ain’t that talkative but hand me a pen

And I’ll begin, first of all

I’m doin' bad, way worse than y’all

When you up and score, hurt when you fall, end of it all

I never had a chance to ball like we supposed to

Lettin' down the people I was close to

People I owe to

And cats who was down with my old crew

And friends even got the same tattoo I do

I asked them for patience we waitin' for pay stubs

Marathon Man still drinkin' outta paper cups

Splashy, all in the mix and get it mastered

Shit faced, sippin' a Schlitz and gettin' plastered

Just playin' the role that we was casted fo'

Somethin' this big has to blow, it has to happen so

«If I die»

Would you forgive me for how I did you wrong?

«If I die»

Would you remember me as your enemy?

«If I die»

If I died then I apologize

«If I die»

For all of the wrong that was done

With this song I would hope my apology helps, helps

My old theme is keep me in green I keep 'em near

My apologies for my deeds I speak it clear

Somethin' held me back from my needs and that was fam

Felt God atmosphere, too shady Lucifer

Caught in the middle of a knock down brawl

Walk around cause I can’t knock down walls

Get telephone calls 'bout how I’m not makin' it

My girl act like she don’t like me not fakin' it

The world lacks righteousness

So drunk, many nights I missed, to get it right like this

My daughter’s forehead gets kissed

Cause see she’s only five turnin' six, she don’t understand drama

Between me and her mama

Because I only give her three numbers, not four, no commas

No matter what, I still love her though

I gotta say it, if I died tonight she’d never know

If I perish without hittin' the top like climbin' Everest

By every chick I slept with, I’d never be missed

I did 'em wrong, then I put they business in a song

Stole from 'em, told 'em how no dude would want 'em

Lied like I lay in a bed

All day playin' with they head

Give 'em some sex that keep 'em fed

I’m ashamed of the way I played the game of love

And my man’s wettin' sitting at the church just sweatin'

Lookin' around, swearin' I’ma get struck down

Knowin' that I left every love I found

My mom’s wasn’t around, she dropped me like a shipment

Maybe that’s why I got a fear of commitment

Maybe that’s an excuse, probably a lame one

My father used the noose, wonder should I use the same one?