Baby Blanket - Buck 65

I don’t want to be a bad person anymore

A casualty that casually fought in a friendly war

Now I’ve seen the light, which makes me worse off than before

And all that’s left of what we had is just an empty drawer

When I looked into the mirror I always acted blind

My life became invisible to my distracted mind

Neither of us ever wants to reenact the crime

Now I’d trade my eyes if I could just go back in time

Jesus Christ, how filled with agony can dreaming be?

Hurry mother, carry me back to the screaming sea

Name your price, because I’ll do anything that you desire

Hold me under water, put my arms into the fire

It would have been a huge mistake, and wouldn’t you agree?

We were making plans to turn our two into a three

The only thing you left behind, you bought just weeks before

Now you’re gone and it’s the only thing that keeps me warm

You left a baby blanket here with me…

I never thought it’d ever happen but the system crashed

Disembodied voices echoed from the distant past

A fire burned with too much fury for me to try and douse

Now I spend the endless hours in a dying house

Shutters cover windows, wreath was taken off the door

My disappearing body drags my shadow across the floor

I can’t tell the rooms apart.

Thought I was lost before

A black bird on a wire.

Skeleton that washed ashore

Betrayal has a memory.

Addictions don’t forgive

Hiding from the wild and violent world in which we live

Can’t make copies of the keys.

Oath that was sworn opposes

It’s in the books.

Pages cut your fingers.

Thrones have roses

With this small reminder every night, I toss and turn

Words I can’t remember anymore are lost and burned

The only thing you left behind you bought just weeks before

Now you’re gone and it’s the only thing that keeps me warm

You left a baby blanket here with me.