Bitter Aftertaste - Blinded By Faith

Looking back, it makes me sick

Despite the years that ran away

The bitter aftertaste is there

I loved you, fucked up girl

Constantly on the verge of sinking

You drank like a black hole

And with all the medication

It was a fatal cocktail in your brain

And you fell down the stairs

Laughed or cried for nothing

I was ashamed, I couldn’t help

But love you, irrationally

We spent two years together

Two years to mend our cracks

Watching the sun die on the roofs

You stopped drinking

And we savored the victory

Bored as two mussels in the sea

Watching movies without listening

Walking the dog as all neighbors did

Believing that we couldn’t be normal

And live like everyone else

Looking back, it makes me sick

Despite the years that ran away

I can’t say exactly when

We reached the point of dislocation

Where our bright white illusions

Crumbled beyond repair

Everything was broken

And I began to hate you

I wanted you to relapse

Betrayed, slapped, insulted

I manage to drag you down

Even lower than when we met

You awoke a beast

Nestled in a corner of my head

Looking back, it makes me sick

Despite the years that ran away

The bitter aftertaste is there

The last time I heard of you

You were in rehab, one more time

I never saw you again

But I remember your number

I could dial it with my eyes closed

And sometimes at night

When it’s cold in the streets

I refrain from calling you

To make sure you’re not dead