Connect - Bilmuri

I can’t seem to hold on to reality

'Cause these thoughts keep moving me

I’m stuck in my feelings

Trying to keep my life from falling to this hole

I dug myself beneath the ground

Don’t want to push you away

But sometimes it feels like I was made that way

I want to break them off today

'Cause I’m not alright and it’s not okay

All theses years these scars remain

I pull them open just to fell the same

It’s so hard to resist

And hard to refrain

Throw this smile on and try to maintain

I can’t understand why no one

Knows me like you do

And why my life won’t seem to move

I can’t understand when I try to push

You away when you’ve done nothing

But love me

Don’t want to push you away

But sometimes it feels like

I was made that way

I want to break them off today

'Cause I’m not alright and it’s not okay

All theses years these scars remain

I pull them open just to fell the same

It’s so hard to resist

And hard to refrain

Throw this smile on and try to maintain

I see you standing on the edge

Of this ledge trying to find me

I hate who I am, cause I almost left you

And fell away

All theses years these scars remain

I pull them open just to fell the same

It’s so hard to resist

And hard to refrain

Throw this smile on and try to maintain